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Monday, June 30, 2008
YES DURCH DEN MONSUN SOUNDS LIKE A SHAMPOO ADVERTISEMENT. or something similar. AND NICOLE, if i could understand ONE sentence from that report before tmr, i am gonna pon CO tmr.
7:50 PM
OH AND i just realized something it's about exactly halfway thru the year and that means half of the year is gone which means only half of the year is left which means... means what? Labels: some thinking involved (:
7:08 PM
yay so happy cuz went hanghang today! at island creamery (how to spell?) and mcdonalds. talk and talk and talk. until 5:30 and left. man it was so fun cuz we drew. but sth very suay happened. shall not elaborate further what happened. then yeah we talktalktalk. haha talking very fun. esp if its those long talking sessions... and i found out a LOT from her today. esp since i wasnt in singapore in the holidays. yeah so.. happy! (: but now i'm left with a mountain of hw. okay not mountain but namely math corrections (i didnt even mark it cuz i wasnt even listening man now i regret) and LA LIT CIRCLE thingy. but that's on thurs. so i can do on weds when i get released from sch early! hope i wont go hanghang again on weds. haha. anyway chi debate today was.. okay. fan fang won. YAY YOUR! and that rule's so stupid. anytime rebut is the same thing what. might as well rebut just after the person say. then HAHA DAMN FUNNY. u know what, susanna the zhu xi supposed to say sth like "after this sth qiang she zhan debate blablabla..." as in she supposed to be like emcee or sth and supposed to use cheem words. but she couldnt read that word and then the whole thing became like so damn funny. it's like writing sth so cheem that u cant even read it like what chin sian said that time. god so funny. shows that there's no need to make words so cheem, unles the person is of chao high standard. or make the person cant even read the script then so funny. lalala i shall get back to my math corrections. darn PT SEEMS simple but actually it aint. i got almost ALL the qns wrong i've no idea why. so ta.
7:00 PM
Sunday, June 29, 2008
COME FOR CO CONCERT AND U'LL GET REWARDED WITH SOMETHING REAL FUN (:
9:15 PM
may i ask a qns? since when did singapore have dry thunders? everytime there's lightning or thunder, but no rain. since i went back to china and came back huh? god i hope it rains tmr then can walk in rain. i love the rain. i can never stop embracing the rain.
8:38 PM
realized sth. it all comes down to if u want or not. but the boundary is WHAT u want. like. ur mum forces u to eat vegs. and u dont want to. so u dont. thats following ur heart. but then she proceeds to say that its good for ur health and so u can grow tall and smart and healthy and wont have constipation. and u dont want to be short and stupid and unhealthy and constipate, so u eat. but u eat cuz of the fact that u want to avoid the results of not eating. not becuz u want to eat the thing itself. maybe in this case its considered as following ur head. Labels: some thinking involved (:
8:19 PM
"tmr we go sch early so no one will us in new haircut okay?" "okay. what time" ... it's been a WEEK ALR!! it feels like it was just ytd AND it feels like it was a hundred years ago. i guess too many things are happening in a short period of time. is that why time seems to pass to quickly and slowly at the same time? Labels: some thinking involved (:
5:06 PM
"what happened?" "i dont know how to do" "that is not a reason for u to no do" "becuz i feel alseep while reading the notes" man history can totally bore me tp sleep. and this like dunno the how manyth time already kay. how the hell am i gonna finish that crappy ws if i sleep everytime i look at it? and i thought it was alr 5 or 6 when i woke up but apparently the day is longer than i thought. okay and what is it that after one and half hours of sleep nth have changed at all? my comp untouched, online ppl still online, no one posts, my history file still on my bed, pens the way they were.... okay i take my sentence back. maybe an hour and a half is shorter than i thought. okay except for the fact that i've become more hungry and now i have a stomachache. AND i just realized that stomachache has two "ach"s. do we actually combine them together and write is as "stomache"? okay not it looks weird. wait.. if one and a half hours is actually short, but i felt the day is long... then.. that means one and half hours is nth to 24hours? does it make sense? oh who cares. ta.
3:39 PM
Saturday, June 28, 2008
man i'm addicted to tokio hotel- monsoon. i'm like playing the song over and over again on youtube. for say the tenth time already. it's so nice. sounds rather familiar. like what they always play in shops or malls or sth like that. HAH or maybe in some commercial or advertisement on tv. it just soudns so familiar and it's not cuz 201ers listen to it everyday. lol
10:00 PM
ah. today was a long day. woke up at 7 20 to go to sch to do aep with jackie. man we were far from finishing. and i feel VERY accomplished today! cuz: 1. did a reasonable amount of aep in 4 hours 2. did a reasonably good job in discussing the debate thing for monday. haha so i stayed in sch from 8 to like 5:40. and during aep we totally got crazy saying some veryvery lame stuff. and i was doodling on the whiteboard with jackie chao funny de. and wow. slit could take away all my misery when i just dunk my hand in it. i feel like dunking mySELF it in. the feeling is just amazing. and i was the first to reach sch. and last to leave sch. went to ewat lunch with huiling shufang yijun. then come back do chi discussion. and chi discussion was rather fun cuz kept laughing cuz we found veryvery funny stuff z9or maybe we were just very high): 1. the aesthetics department had this stupid redundant bell which u cant press at "THE window" and we pressed it to call mr lim and when it rang we found it SO amusing. just like how 3 yr olds get excited over sth amazing to them. lol it was real funny that they actually had a BELL there. 2. all the teachers had an ext no rmb? and well LOL just try calling one of the teachers when ur free and when there's no teachers around in the staffroom, like today. and LOL we wanted to look for wang lao shi and pressed her ext and STH TOTALLY FUNNY CAME OUT. u'll nvr guess. and lol learning the recodring was funny, we decided to call mrs koh too. and expected them to say a long name like "u have reached the mailbox, s--------- koh". but in the end it turned out to be "hi s--- here. *pause* please leave a msg" then cuz we were doing it for fun we were totally freaked out by that first sentnece. skarly she really there then what are we supposed to say??? LOL it was SO DAMN FUNNY just ask yijun or cher yee. we repeated it like a hell lot of times. and we concluded that everytcher recorded their own voice msg. and we wanted to call ms sabrina. then we kinda said she's say sth like "hey y'all! whassup man! ready to rock on tonight??!!!" and cher yee is crazy man. keep laughing. and the buy drink part is also damn funny lor. then somehow some ppl broke into class and opened the back door. so at first we all went back into class to do discussion and them their history sia. then later decided to go mac lab do, cuz got air con, internet and printer. lol. but mr lim didnt let, so went aep room instead. stayed in aep room until somewhere like 5:30. and got afraid of being locked in school, so went down to canteen. then just as we were about to go at 5 40 WE SAW HULING AND SHUFANG! wah so qiao they decided to go home the same time as us. lol. they say they tried 2 staircases from 3rd floor and both was shut. then only the canteen one open. and we met. and we left together. (: and on th bus, i saw that "couple" again. the one which we walked pass during on of our CO lunch in bukit timah with the woman saying "what??" in a high pitched tone to her caucasian guy-friend which we imitated. LOL. and reached home. gosh i cant believe i actually have to do this kind of thing on a saturday.like what jackie said, it feels like i've no life. and the debate discussion was rather, slacky. but we got alot down. haha we all planned it to be a play-play since the other group also play play only but then yijun still made it so formal i was so stressed tat i had to write down all my points. and god monday wouldnt be a good day for anyone to listen to me and yumo talk. lol. or bring a pair of.. ear plugs. yeah. okay now i gtg do math sia. ta. ps sorry this whole post is not totally in chronological order but the main things are. lol i just realized almost none of my posts are in total c order. cuz i just write whatever that comes to mind. lol its messy. --- how's this: u dao a person whom u like and u like a person whom u dao.
7:38 PM
Friday, June 27, 2008
owe u a lot. a lot of unspoken words, a lot of unspoken apologies. a lot of fun, a lot of joy. but above all, a lot of love. would you give me the chance to make it right again? Labels: haha
11:07 PM
yes build up a wall and see if anyone cares enough to tear it down. sometimes no one will even noice there's a wall. sometimes people are afraid to tear down ur wall. ------- and tmr doesnt even feel like a saturday to me. morning aep afternn debate discussion even my WEEKENDS are confiscated. now tell me where "rest" is. Labels: some thinking involved (:
10:59 PM
shucks i dont wanna sleep tonight. i still have: MATHS, LA and HISTORY at this time of the day. yeah, pro. so im gonna stay up to finish them. i just finished OM REPORT becuz SOME PEOPLE just didnt want to send me their work. and recommendation and solution is damn crap. since its done by me, last minute work. okay and now i needa go do maths. and im listening to songs (: haha aloha e komo mai. man if i dont sleep tonight tmr im gonna be CHAO tired seeing there's gonna be CO in the afternn. GOD GOD GOD. so stressed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
12:29 AM
Thursday, June 26, 2008
and she just HAD to make it due tomorrow. it isnt as if we're rushing for a plane to harvard or something we must get all topics covered wayyyyyyyy before test. simply, we're just learning too much. it's almost excessive. Labels: some thinking involved (:
11:01 PM
let's change a perspective: (all i need to do is to lie to myself about yesterday. but,) would YOU ignore me? would YOU pretend nothing's happened and talk to me normally? would YOU hate me? it takes two hands to clap. Labels: haha
8:06 PM
today was okay i guess. history was funner than i had imagined cuz of all the ti wai hua. yi lun wen was better than i expected but in the first few minutes i really couldnt concentrate. aep was... i did zuowen. cuz i didnt have the silhouettes so cant do the animals.. feel bad. sci.. haha soap making was rather fun except that ur arm will ache.. and stuff. oh yes, and stuff. history chao funny today lorh. just cuz i was putting sth under my table, and almost topple over, i said "oh my god" then tcher heard and went on saying how she thinks ohmygod sounds very bimbotic and stuff and convent sch girls and stuff. then later dunno why talked about nation-li ye nv yong. then i heard and i was ike "ohmygod nation li ye nu yong". lol. and i didnt even realized i said it until yumo told me. cuz that is the ad line i ALWAYS imitate when i walk pass the nation maids advertisement in JEC. LOL. then the conformists thing also. hah tcher seems to realize about conforming too. and hi fived with yuxin. lol i didnt know yuxin also dislike conformists eh. haha good now that i've found a zhi xin. lol. anyway. oh. yeah. was damn full during recess. but was so hungry during history. but was having no appetite at all. yeah and sorry i shouldnt be blogging now cuz there's like, MATH, OM REPORT, BLA, BLA, AND BLA. and im sorry for that today. im really, really sorry. i really didnt mean to hurt ur or disappoint ur. just that.. in fact, i'm sorry for all i've done wrong. okay i guess i better go get that whoever to send me her OM... god. why must they pile us with homework at this kind of time? (me arguing with myself: then whenelse should they pile s with homework?) gah. i guess doing hw now s rather pointless since i cant concentrate AT all. ... but i still feel bad for not doing anything "meaningful". so ta. ohoh and saw amanda he during aep today! lol i almost couldnt recognise her!! yay so happy saw my angel again (:
7:25 PM
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
i dont know what to do. so tell me. would u want me to ignore u? would u want me to pretend nth's ever happened and talk to u normally? would u want me to hate u? it seems like nth can make it right again. Labels: haha
10:11 PM
enjoying urself right now arent u. and today was basically a sian day. cept for sci, which was damn funny. oh and cept for the rain too. during sci the tcher revised all our sec 1 work seeing no one could rmb much. and susanna made the best discovery! guess what? we've learnt more in one hour than the whole term 3 of last year! dont u agree? everything was so clear today. wow. she could actually cover a term's topic in an hour. pei fu pei fu. and during recess it rained. rather heavily. went to walk in the rain. at first near the swing near the track there. then decided to go back. and walk at quad. but scared teacher see us. then hurry abit. then scared slip and fall. ahh its so nice in the rain. and i love the wind too. i love winds. and came back all wet. drenched. transparent. but it was all worth it. but assembly was more than boring. i almost slept. although whatever the content is appeals to me quite alot, but still i felt like sleeping. maybe it's cuz they all seemed to have drone on and on forever. anyway. chi. i so do not agree with that what, whats his name?? er.. something ge xi. yeah the guy who ge xi. u can only be friends with those who are zhi tong dao he with you. then i can tell no one will have any friends. firstly, how can there be so many people who have the exact same/same interests as u? unless ur talking about choosing very good friends. and secondly, u should be friends with a wide variety of people. cuz it's not only friends in life u have to deal with. u have to deal with project mates and stuff. they may not be ur friend, but u must know how to deal with them. so, when u have friends of many kinds, then u'll get exposed to more kinds of people. rather than get stuck to ur own kinds. that's very very pathetic. and thirdly. even if they are zhi tong dao he with u, they may still be mean to u, or want to take advantage of u or sth. just becuz he likes the same thing as u, just cuz he have the same dreams as u, it makes him an okay person? a good friend? how would u know? and fourthly, we shouldnt "duan jue guan xi" with friends who're mean, bad, etc. instead, we should try to change them to make them a better person. in conclusion i think that whoever who "ge xi" is a very selfish person. a heart follower who would do anything to achieve his own dreams, and he doesnt want to get "polluted" by other people's thoughts, doings ,actions etc. wants to just be himself. but he certainly is overdoing it. and yes from the assembly today, he hurts his friend. and which is why i always say heart-following applies when MONEY and HUMANITY dont come in the way. there shouldnt be a third reason. or at least i havent thought of it yet. ohwell. sian sian sian. still got om report havent finish. ANYWAY, why's only xuyue online? where the hell did everyone else disappear to? is singapore THAT big? oh yeah, stupid me. they all went out to go hanghang. lalala. ta.
4:20 PM
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
omg dunno why recently (starting from around 3 days or 2 days ago) my house keep like short circuit. really. like morning when wake up then there'll be no power. then just now go out have dinner then come back also no power. then my dad has to go switch on that thingy thing.. damn freaky lorh. then i keep thinking there's some people or creatures in the house. cuz i keep hearing sounds too. damn scary. but maybe is my ears too sensitive. damn really creepy okay. always short circuit for dunno what reason. and i was screaming to the house just now. asking whoever it was to come out. and that i can scream very loud. the whole world will know there's some person in my house. i practically screamed okay. and lol my mum bei wo xia dao. haha. really lorh. then it always short circuit when we arent like.. zhu yi. like when we sleep, or when we watch tv or sth. omg so damn creepy. gonna call the PUB and ask if it continues kay. i dont care if they dont know i just ask them to see if they have ANY idea. it's DAMN scary.
9:33 PM
yo, yo yoyo yo yooo, yo yo. lol im addicted to the sha di er i guess. its so catchy! oh yes something VERY FUNNY (AND stupid=.=)happened today. today during drama i went back to class to get my journal. and on my table i saw a handphone, in a pouch, in a zip lock bag. guessing that it was some classmates who left it there, i brought it up to the drama room and asked if it was anyone's. no one claimed it. hmm, how weird. then mr ng came in and we showed him the phone. and told him all the stuff. then he tried putting in the battery and on-ning the phone. doesnt work. then he put n his own sim card. still doesnt work. hmm.. maybe no battery. it was so freaky. a mysterious phone appeared on my table and no idea where it came from and cant be on-ed. then he say charge it and see what happens. then i said scarely explode. lol. it might be some u know, cannot say kind of things. then everyone started saying is some secret admirer give de. cuz in the ziplock bag got the shuo ming shu somemore. then everyone started to have weird ideas, saying dunno which perverted person give de. then scarely inside got recorded msg. lol. got all these weird ideas chao funny. then after drama go back class and get back. while i was back at my table, IT HIT ME. i forgot how i rmbed but yes IT JUST HIT ME. IT'S MY FOSTER SISTER'S. guess what. her phone spoilt and she asked if we could help her send for repair. and during lunch i went to her class to find her. she wasnt there. so i left her a msg on the board asking her to come find me after school. SO SHE LEFT IT ON MY TABLE. and seriously FORGETFUL me totally forgotten about this. AND THOUGHT WAS WHAT MYSTERIOUS PHONE. god. cant believe im so stupid. then wasted like everyone's time during drama. haha. but then the discussion about it was chao funny. gahhhh i feel so so so stupid. oh yeah. and lol during recess, we were eating lollipops. meizhen nat i. and when teacher came we havent finished eating. HOWHOW we panicked. then nat had an idea- to cut off the stick at the bottom then can put the whole thing in ur mouth. haha thats what i did. meizhen use her scissors and cut that stick for me. WAS THE SCISSORS CLEAN? i asked her only after i finished the whole lollipop. was i reeeeeaaaaal slow or what. then like we were eating lollipop in class, and meizhen being the chi rep always had to ans teacher's qns. then.. lol. u can guess what happened. damn funny. and after i eat the whole thing, left the stick. i thought it looked cute so i didnt throw it away. and guess what. i figured i could play "dizi" with it. there's a hole near the end of it! so i blow in it. AND YAY I MANAGED TO BLOW "DIZI"! cuz last time i tried some CO people's then no sound come out at all. and now i know the technique. to "kiss" (haha from adelyn) it then turn it down. hah, so it DOES work like this. lol. and it's so cute cuz its so short. hah im planning to drill holes with needles thru it so can have tune. hm i doubt it'll work seeing that the stick is like so.. thin. more like i'll drill MYSELF instead huh. okay i gtg have dinner le. ta! PS I LOVE OUR DRAMA PLOT! IT'S SO AMAZINGLY CLEVER OKAY! THANKS TO JINGWEN! (:
8:07 PM
omg this morning on the car on the way to school i heard this DAMN MEANINGFUL song. in chinese. on 1003. it makes SO MUCH sense. god. but when i search on youtube it's like in jap. hm? anyway here' the lyrics: 曾有一次晚餐和一个梦 在什么时间地点和那些幻想 我已经遗忘 我已经遗忘 生活是肥皂香水眼影唇膏 许多的电话在响 许多的事要备忘 许多的门与抽屉开了又关 关了又开 如此的慌张我来来往往 我匆匆忙忙 从一个方向到另一个方向 忙忙忙 忙忙忙 忙是为了自己的理想 还是为了不让别人失望 盲盲盲 盲盲盲 盲的已经没有主张盲的已经失去方向忙忙忙 盲盲盲忙的分不清欢喜和忧伤忙的没有时间痛哭一场 man it's so true.. Labels: some thinking involved (:
9:41 AM
okay u know what. there ARE 2 BLOCK TESTS IN TERM THREE. AM I SLOW OR WHAT. okay **** is seriously stupid kay. they have this block test system which is supposedto give us "more time" to study. but how does having TWO FREAKING tests in a term help? it not only take away our holidays, it also worsens another term for us, THANK YOU MAN ****. i wonder who came up with this INGENIOUS idea of having block tests AFTER holidays. in the end, we get like 2 tests in a term. god. it's really the stupid-est thing ive ever heard. if there's like 3 tests in all in a year due to block tests i wouldnt mind koay. BUT THIS IS SERIOUSLY S.T.U.P.I.D. okay. i declare. like im SO NOT gonna tolerate this for another year alright. i'm SO GONNA go to the meet the parents session and when they ask if there's any quesitons i'm SO GONNA ask who had this iudea of placing tests AFTER the hols? it sucks. really sucks. the old system is like SO MUCH HBETTER. much spread out and we have time to rest relax and enjoy and we have a test in wk10 of term 3, then immediately another EOY coming up in somewhen early term 4. yeah HOW NICELY ARRANGED HUH. gah. im freaking gonna die. thanks to ****. it started out wrong. i wonder if they realized their mistake or are they gonna yi cuo zai cuo xia qu next year. GOD.
9:25 AM
Monday, June 23, 2008
ohyes. i realized how nice mrs koh is, for not minding us "vandalize" the tables. life would be so boring if i cant draw/scribble/write on the table! then cant write on other ppls tables also. cant we just BUY the table and it'll follow us right up to sec 4? then i'll buy a brand new one for the school. haha that's rather ridiculous. but i was so used to writing on my table. heh then can cheat during sci quiz also. LOL. nah just kidding. sian... really, i just realized it's so nice of her to let us do that. she understands us. maybe not completely. but better than other teachers do i guess. rmb what she said about our "hyperactive-ness" as well? yay finally got back my appetite. or i will become anorexic. okay i gtg install itunes now ta. Labels: some thinking involved (:
8:02 PM
Sunday, June 22, 2008
fairytales. it doesnt matter as much if they're realistic or not. they make a fairytale for people to enjoy. some of them make fairytales to tell people that the end will always come good, which maybe not be true just yet. u watch a fairytale and it makes u happy becuz there's a nice ending. so what if u felt that joy and happiness for only that second and then think that its impossible and start to criticize it? it's still worth it. becuz life is made up of the current, not the future. maybe the past. u felt happy for that one moment. that's enough. but of cuz some people wont feel happy for even that moment. then that'll be their own prob, i've nth to say. they've chosen to hate fairytales and to not believe in them. then why watch it in the first place? anyway, the "end" is always up to urself to decide. where is the end? i dont think there is a definite answer for any case. for nth is definitely definite. so u can always think the bad times arent the end, and there'll be a rainbow after the rain. yeah like, u can say, the rain is the end for some situations. what exactly im not sure. maybe the END of the rain IS the end of the rain. but the rainbow is also the end of the process of the rain. it comes together. without water there shouldnt be rainbow. depends on how u see it. another example is the greatly used example of albert einstein and his light bulbs. he tried so many times and failed so many times. but did he think it was the end? no. he kept on trying until it finally worked. and THAT, to him, was the happy ending. then in this case fairytales does make sense. --- (being disney-ish all over again) believe in urself, u can do it (: oh yeah and there's nice very nice ad on disney channel about their DCOMs. it's been on disney channel since forever but i've never blogged about it. it's really inspiring, just like any other DCOMs. (: PS ANYWAY i'm just saying these cuz i had sth to say to object. nth more. Labels: some thinking involved (:
10:24 PM
darn it's not ended yet. i rather it ended. cuz it's only more confusing this way. --- and my arms are aching now from remaining in the same position/carrying the can for hours ytd. people dont laugh when u see me kay cuz its not like im obsessed with my haircut either. Labels: some thinking involved (:
10:13 PM
i realized one thing. thinking is never ending. esp when u think deep into something. and it always seems to be like this: first u get an idea. u think about it. it makes sense. there's no gaps holes anything. surfacial. then u think into it. and realized it kinda contradicts ur first impression. the deeper meaning. and then u wanna look into it even deeper. and u realize. hey, it actually comes back to ur first impression. just some differences here and there. contradiction. and the more u think, the more this is gonna continue and continue. and sometimes i feel like i just wanna stop at a point. continuing forever non stop is just tiring. u have to learn to understand new concepts. and i forget sometimes. so i'll stop at one point. but say to myself. this isnt the end. there'll never be an end. but let's just think this for now. and when u have time, u can continue thinking. but most of the times i willl just turn out to confuse myself even more by thinking like this. so i think thinking is a confusing work to be done.
8:40 PM
okay i seriously should be doing my work but this seriously had been on my mind for a seriously long time. and it's to blog about positive things about having short hair. 1. u dont have to waste time tying up ur hair 2. u can use less shampoo and conditioner, thus saving them. and thus aving money in the long run. 3. u use less area of the towel to dry ur hair cuz there's less hair so less water so less area on the towel will be wet. so there will be more dry areas to dry ur body. 4. u dont have to waste money on buying nicenice rubber bands to tye ur hair. or clips. dun have to waste time choosing them too. 5. it's more cooling as compared to when u let ur long hair down 6. ur hair dies faster? (theorically this should be right but i havent experienced it yet) 7. u just dont have to bother about ur hair when u go out. 8. --- kay thats all i have for now. now let me get back to doing LA. ta.
3:20 PM
what a smash. even my parents are interested in watching it. ANYWAY yes my eyes were aching ytd. cuz of the red thing i guess. hope i can watch the 2d one tonight. but that is if i had prepared enough tonight. lalalalalalala sian.
11:12 AM
Saturday, June 21, 2008
oh darn me how can i forget this. THANK YOU XIAOHAN ADELYN HUIPIN FOR PEI-ING ME DO CIP 8 HOURS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ur kindness is GREATLY APPRECIATED!!!! (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: THANK YOU AND HAVE A NICE DAY! (:
10:54 PM
yo yo yo yo! just finished watching the "3D concert" guess what. no offence but the most 3D thing i found was the plastic pieces they explode from on top. yeah. it's either the 3d goggles doesnt work well, or they didnt do the 2d version of the 3d version well. it's just not as good as those u get from universal studios or movie world or similar places. and i couldnt only see red, red, and more red. oh well it's still nice i guess. what's with all the atmosphere and the loud blasting music and everything. and i realized they're very mean. she called one of the crew "losers". lol but i think in usa, it doesnt mean anything. o.O okay honestly, i was a lil disappointed with disney. gthat shouldnt be their standard. or maybe cuz its asia so they dont bother doing it properly? no, i have not lost faith in disney. never will. (or at least now) --------- ANYWAY i just remembered i was supposed to gross everyone out. (or shall with y'all a VERY funny thing) today while we were resting, drinking bubbletea at some benches in toa payoh, this old uncle came, stood in front of the rubbish bin (which was just maybe 2.5 meters away from us. no IN FRONT of us, DIRECTLY), pressed on one side of his nose, and blew his nose. nono that's not the point. the point is, AND SNOT CAME OUT FROM HIS NOSE INTO THE BIN. (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) and me and huipin both saw at the same time. then we were like, "OH MY GOD........." after he left. and fall out laughing like mad. and we didnt even appetite to finish our bubbletea anymore. all i felt was salty, and snot. in my throat. HOW GROSS. u know actually now coming to think of it, its more of funny than gross. HEY maybe i can make a flip-o-rama about it! it wont be hard, i guess. but i have to find time. okay i'll put it in my todo lost. god it's seriously disgusting okay. and funny. i mean, just IMAGINE it. he totally blew his nose into nothing. but snot into the bin. i mean. the SNOT ACTUALLY FLEW INTO THE BIN. and in case u have no idea i was seriously laughing as i typed that line, the capitalized line. *after a while of checking dictionary and laughing* and im still laughing. seriously funny okay. arent u totally grossed out by
10:30 PM
god cip flag day today. guess what. we actually went to city hall, then to toa payoh, then back to city hall, then back to toa payoh, and finally back to city hall again. we had like 5 apples, some cards, and some cards. big cards and small cards. and a can, of course. so we basically had to carry a can, 2 apples and put 3 apples, all the big cards into our bag and the small cards into our pockets. sounds pretty busy huh. there's alot of nice and kind people at toa payoh. unlike at orchard, where everyoe is just too busy shopping to getting to another mall to even look at u. and really, i was rather amazed that so many people actually donates. cuz everytime at je mrt station when ppl come ask for donation i just ignore them like how u ignore those ppl giving out flyers. and now i realized how xin ku it is for them to stand and ask for donation. and how happy they feel when someone donates. okay, maybe just me. but i really felt very happy whenever a person donates okay! so xiaohan and i said, next time someone asks for donation, we're gonna donate. and u know it always feels so nice to see little kids asking their parents for money to donate. once two malay girls, very small girls, came to me (i didnt notice them until they were right in front of me) and put in coins. then went away. lol guess what i heard as they walked away? one of them said "no sticker.." lol. so.. innocent. childlike. but sometimes i see children who give their parents a "dont-donate-lah-waste-money" look too. lol. all types of people in the world. and there was even a very educated woman. here's the convo: me: hi would u like to make a donation for the disfunctional families? lady: okay. can u tell me what disfunctional families are? define disfunctional. me: (shucks im not sure. how?!) erm.. like broken family.. or family with very low income. lady: (smiles) yeah okay. (puts coin) me: thank you! have a nice day! oh yes and at the very end of the whole thing huipin and xiaohan and i stood at the end of the coming down escalator and xiaohan would first go "good afternoon" then i woud say "would u like to donate?" and then huipin would say "thank you and have a nice day". lol. and then we have apples to sell (give out) too. so we basically just said "thank you! have a nice day!" to everyone who came down on the escalator. got so high. lol. and god my feet are ACHING from hours of standing today now. okay. erm. ohyes and i still havent finish LA and history. and chi sia. god. but HAH thanks to jessy i'm not gonna miss out this year's disney channel's biggest TV event which is the 3D HANNAH MONTANA CONCERT!!! god it sounds SO DAMN COOL KAY. and i even looked for where they give out goggles and went to get them today. last minute, very afraid they would run out of stock. but yay i got them! COOL I CANT WAIT!!! i mean, see hannah montana 3D? isnt that relaly awesome??? for a disney fan like me and many others? so amazing. okay i should stop crapping and wastin ur time so ta.
7:59 PM
Friday, June 20, 2008
IT'S NOW OR NEVER. i'll be here waiting. praying. wishing. hoping. and when i open my eyes tmr... what's going to be?
11:39 PM
the rain was so huge this morning. that i woke up. afraid, i covered my ears but made sure my eyes were open. or i might get a huge shock from the thunder. and i couldnt sleep with my hands at my ears. so i sat up on my bed. and looked out. vision was blurred. couldnt even see the opposite block clearly. everything was just gray. and the wind, was almost howling. a lightning came. i jumped and covered my ears. then came the blasting thunder. and i thought. in the past i wouldve ran to my parent's room, waking them. but this time i wasnt as scared. i just wanted to make sure my blankets were on. that was all. but it felt like the thunder was just my friend, and there was nothing to be afraid of at all. no the thunder was music. low, growling sounds, new age music. that came in anytime they wanted. offbeat. and how much i wanted to just go and stand in the rain, enjoying the wind, that is so rare to singapore. it was a thunderstorm, was it not? i loved the rain, pity i couldnt enjoy it. and i sat, couldnt sleep. looking out, i realized the rain got smaller, as i could see the opposite block more clearly now. but the thunder did not stop. they came continuously, and sometimes the whole place just lighted up in a split second. i loved the lightning too i guess. i like how it lights up place so quickly and how it darkens again. it's so cool. i would love to witness a complete sharp lightning. yeah that'd be my life goal. as i sat and watched the rain, i thought of her too. wondering where she is now. wondering what's going on. wondering if she had the tiniest idea what's going to be. wondering... thinking... and the thunder was almost gone. it was quite peaceful at last, and i, fell back asleep.
9:15 PM
fine. but it feels exactly like last time. and now i learnt a lesson from it. when one dont love, one dont hate either. Labels: haha
8:00 PM
overpopulation. if there wasnt so many people on earth there wouldnt be a lack of petrol. if there wasnt so many people on earth there wouldnt be so much competition. if there wasnt so many people on earth there wouldnt be a shortage of food. and water. if there wasnt so many people on earth there wouldnt be such problem as insufficient land. if there wasnt so many people on earth there wouldnt be so much deforestation. if there wasnt so many people on earth there wouldnt be so many cars. if there wasnt so many people on earth there wouldnt be so too much stress. ...
7:56 PM
Thursday, June 19, 2008
i just realized. music sounds better when u are part of it urself. and im beginning to love cca cuz of that. can feel this great sense of accomplishment when u play together with everyone else in dazu. it's seriously a nice feeling. (though i slack in xiao zu alot as compared to someone... u know who.) and today we had to lian: tu tuku tu tuku tu tuku tu tuku (and it carries on for like more than 40 times) non stop until i totally felt like fainting due to a lack of oxygen in my brain. and senior got angry with our "heck care attitude when concert is only "4 weeks and a day away"" she got impatient. NOT LIKE I DIDNT. u know i just CANT practice the same thing for too long or my brai will auto get tired of it then itwill shut it self down. this is a process i always find myself going back to: a new piece. practice practice practice. better. continue practice practice non stop. it stops at a certain lvl. continue practice. the level drops and start to hit wrong notes. and get impatient. always like that. ever since practising piano i've found out this. it applies everytime (for me) okay. and lol dazu was again funny cuz of some very random funny craps. like lin lao said "1 2 3 gua zou" and senior heard and learnt and the next time lin lao said "1 2 3", she said "gua zou", which lin lao said again too. and we were like laughing. AND xiaohan made a GREAT discovery. today was the last holiday dazu we';; be having with our seniors.... how sad. i realy cant imagine dazu without seniors. not for one dazu. but for forever. i think i'll just die and rot or get scolded by mrs ee like hell. oh and haha some clever ppl left theclassroom backdoor open. sneakedinto class. xiaohan got her stuff and we looked at the timetable. and now i forgot what lessons there are, again. i on.y know there's LA everyday cept tues. lol. kay and toodles. one more day to june 21st. WILL U BE THERE????
10:29 PM
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
bracelets, sides of me.
10:15 PM
and there i stood, in the rain, thinking of you. let's see what happens on june 21st. will u be there? --------------------------------------------- and u cant imagine just how disturbed i was. or am. i wish i didnt find out. i wish i didnt see. gosh. completely changed. back to say 20 years before? ew. i really dont wish to find out anymore. oh.my.god. if i think about it i'll DIE okay. and i HAD to distract myself from it by clapping the rhythm to a co song. OMGOMGOMG i think i needto see a counsellor now. i FEEL SO DISTURBED. and yes right now. or recently. i've decided. i'll NEVER do that. for my own sake. i feel asahmed of everyone now. kay including myself maybe. why must it be like this? and i assure u im not in that getting-to-know phrase. becuz most ppl think like that too, in that phrase. but i'm well over it. but it just.. disturbs me now more than ever. god. i wish i dont have to. it's really sooo indescribable. and here's my question: what if u found out?
9:39 PM
guess what. as i sat on the bus, i heard a guy's voice from the TV saying "will find a boyfriend". thinking he was gay, i looked up at the screen. he did look like a guy. i continued watching. and then to realize that ITS A FEMALE. i was so shocked okay. cuz she is an iron-woman, with muscles and everything. omg she really totally looked like a man. and her voice. was a hundred percent a guys voice. hm. does being an ironwoman make ur voice sound deep? why? it's so weird. then there was this commercial. it made so much more sense than a girl who totally looked like a guy. it said how the earth would be dark and dull and boring, if we dont save electricity now. the ad was rather emo. cuz there wasnt sound. only words. and pictures. and the showed the now vibrant world and the "predicted future dull world". and then back to that show. the ironman de. but this time it only became more disturbing cuz she totally dressed up as a female. wearing like, female stuff? lol. and god. maybe u can try searching her on the net, since she's alr on TV, her name's joe. and haha today cca was really fun. went to huipins house to have lunch and man lunch was awesome!!! except have to walk for quite long to reach her house. lol. and during dazu someone (our senior) walked like an auntie and we totally laughed our heads off. only our section. cuz we always call her ah-ma or auntie. then everyone else look at us laugh. and today was generally a very funny day cuz our seniors went bonkus (again). so yeah. now i gtg do other htings seeing i've like what a hundred items on my to do list. so ta.
6:25 PM
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
ytd i was thinking again in bed since i couldnt sleep, and here aresome random stuff i jot down: -should i wear a scarf on my head covering my head leavng only my eyes when sch starts? -OMG WHY DONT U TELL ME WHEN U WILL BE BACK. and i agree with ur post. but does it mean...? go read my tag! -from ls: people who cs are the most self loving. and self loving = selfish in a sense too? -should i waste money and go fo sat preparation course? -i really must save and save or i'll feel EXTREMELY bad! -OMG I WOULD LIKE NEVER EVER IN MY LIFE DO THAT. it's so ultimately gross. i saw it and i totally freaked out. -and for some weird reason i was so scared as i clicked the url, and wait for the page and load, and to read. i guess im just too paranoid cuz it already happened once. and the end, wasnt good for me, at all. -... i guess i slept. and yeah this post was just random. so u just wasted ur time in reading it, unless...
9:24 PM
wat was it ABOUT the POST tht made u angry at me? the sarcastic tone i used? or how selfish i sounded? or what? i dont want to offend people again and again like that. Labels: haha
9:23 PM
ahwell. i realized. or i THINK i realized. heart means totally what U WANT to do while head is what is POLITICALLY "right" and "correct" and normal and stuff. like ponning cca is politically incorrect. and this was my convo with xiaohan during co today: me: is jaywalking right? she: no. me: it's wrong? she: yeah. me: why is it wrong? she: becuz its against the law. me: just because it'sagainst the law it;s wrong? she: ... me: what about jaywalking makes it wrong? she: nothing. me: then why is it against the law? she: well it's good for ourselves. me: so "wrong" means not good for ourselves? is it true? lol it feels like i've lost my common sense already. i dont even know what's the definition of "right" and "wrong" anymore. and i realized cca can be really fun too. but i learnt one thing. when u work over-time for cca,u might not be able to go home. cuz this was what happened. our prac supposed to end at 5. then senior made us stay back and practice till around.. say 5 40 or sth. and we were practicing in m3 all the while. while our bags and everything were in m4 01. then when we finally came out of m3 uncle jack saw us and said m401 is locked already. and according to him the keys are returned to m4 also. "DIE! HOW???" exclaimed us. how? wallets everything in m4 then how to go home??? and everyone was panicky. BUT LUCKILY there was a senior who surprsingly had the keys who CAME TO OUR RESCUE! (: cuz she said she left her stuff in m4 too. lol. and nice her she saw our bags still there and she waited for us. unlike whoever it was who first locked the door, didnt see still got bags in the room. phew. so close to staying overnight in school or walking home. so u see? this lesson tells us we shouldnt work over time too much, unless EVERYBODY else are. or w'd get locked out. and the bus was damn packed. and on the bus i saw this girl. which JUST made me think of the line "what's happening to society?". she had earrings, those, with erm hnging things ones. but LITTLE hanging things, not those huge kind. and had her toenails painted. really. se was no more than 6 i guess. ad all these. and the clothes she wore was rather, shny glittering and stuff. look at what society has become. dressing a kindergarten girl up. or a kindergarten girl who wants to dress up. in the past who cared about appearance and "beauty" at the age of 6? it's either im really too tomboyish or that i jut dont likedessing up or hat tere really is a problem with society. everything seems to be about appearance and stuff. now here's some meaningful lyrics from simple plan. a reason why i like simple pln songs. some of thir songs amke a lot of sense. it makes u think. thought-provoking. like this one below: Tell me what's wrong with society When everywhere I look I see Young girls dying to be on TV They wont stop 'til they've reached their dreams (u SHOULD try to reach ur dream no matter what it is) Diet pills, surgery Photoshop pictures in magazines Telling them how they should be It doesn't make sense to me Chorus: Is everybody going crazy? Is anybody gonna save me? Can anybody tell me what's going on? Tell me what's going on If you open your eyes You'll see that something is wrong I guess things are not how they used to be There's no more normal families Parents act like enemies (damn speaking of this u wanna know what i found out about my parents. IT TOTALLY MAKES ME DISGUSTED.) Making kids feel like it's world war III No one cares, no one's there I guess we're all just too damn busy Money's our first priority It doesn't make sense to me (chorus) Tell me what's wrong with society When everywhere I look I see Rich guys driving big SUV's While kids are starving in the streets No one cares No one likes to share I guess life's unfair (chorus) really. i TOTALLY agree with that bolded, green-ed, and large-ed text. i mean, most of the problems people have now, i ensure u most of them i can root it to money. really. it's taking over our heart, in case u havent noticed. okay like here's a long eg. u want to pon cca but u cant and u have to suffer from cca: -if u dont go for cca u'll have bad remark when u graduate from sec school. -somehow it'll ollow u thruout ur life using the singapore keep-complete-track-of-every-single-student-they-have-here system. -and u might not get into a good university. -which leads to u not being able to get a good paying job. -which leads to u not getting a good amount of money to live. and the reason i say mony has taken over ur heart: -when u dont get enough money u cant get whatever u want -leads to, cannot follow ur heart. see??? WHICH IS WHY I HATE MONEY. all the problem goes down to ONE EFFING WORD MONEY. money is a bad thin okay. maybe i would even consider it the worst invention ever. MAYBE if there isnt such hting as money there wouldnt be atomic bombs. cuz ppl who invened bombs wanted to make money too, if im not wrong. and i completely believe a world can function as effectively as (or maybe even more effective than) this world. there MUST be other ways out. i dont care what but there must. there must be some other way to get what u want without using money. or seashells. things in univere are really un-imaginable. u don know what clever smart genious creatures lurk in the universe out there. and i bet they dont have the concept of "money". i hate the concept of "money". everything is about money money money. it sucks. and yes i do ahunded believe there ARE other creatures than humans out there in the universe. i mean, that;s a really "duh" question to me and no offence. i mean, the universe is SO HUGE for gods sake there MUST be other creatures. how the universe can humans be the only creatures??? i will nver believe in such crap. and which is why i like astronomy. or whatever branch of sci u call it. the investigation of outer space. u never know what u'll find out from the mystic universe. really. okay and i realized im drifted from, the definition of "right" and "wrong" to telling about why i like the space. yes proves i crap too much so goodbye. NO WAIT> just got a sudden inspiration. maybe that world's creatures have this feature about themselve that they can "cut" and "regrow". maybe like. if they want this item, they "cut" part of themselves (no it's not bloody or disgustin just hink of it as a lego pieces) and get the item. then they'll regrowafter sometime. a very short while, perhaps. then maybe the "shop owner" with the most no. of parts of bodies is "richest". well i cant move away much from the concept of "competition" and "money" much since i'm an earthling. afterall. so. ta. gtg for dinner. Labels: some thinking involved (:
7:22 PM
Monday, June 16, 2008
fine im sorry it was all so harsh. not like i wasnt offended too. maybe i should just ignore and act like i dont know. afterall innocence can be the best way out sometimes. Labels: haha
10:13 PM
and i didnt even force u to listen to whatever i had to say. its ur problem u took it so hard. and then ur blaming me for saying all that. and u say im selfish. i didnt even nearly put it in ur face. if u really dont care u couldve ignored that whole crappy post and live ur life like u always did. u're angered by sth i wrote. yeah i admit i wrote. but u cannot blame me for u being angry cuz i didnt zhen dui u. i wrote it to "publicize following ur heart". is that wrong? targetted at everyone. everyone was the audience. NOT JUST YOU. others didnt have such big unecessary reaction like the world's ending or sth. it's not my problem ur angered. okay? yes and u'd say i'm selfish for saying that sentence again. yeah. have it UR way then. i'm not being selfish nor am i being self centred. i DO take in people's words. it was just sth i believed in so strongly. u have an effing problem with that? and just because U dont believe in it u must make it sound like i'm wrong? i didnt use a single harsh word on it while u were saying fuck all way long. now who's more selfish about it? i admit i made u angry about it but it's not my FAULT u are angry because u just took it harder than everyone else. ur the one who over reacts about it. it's not like i said "listen to me or die" or sth. u TREATED it that way. fine, think that then. and ur like offended just cuz i believed so strongly in sth. yeah? what's the point? ur only making urself angry. really. i didnt wanna make anyone think the same as me i just wanna express my opinion and that, is NOT being selfish. and it was in the list U HAVE too, ur legitimate rights. everyone has the right to express their view. and thus i am not responsible for u being so offended by it. again, u couldve chose to take it not-so-hard. yeah and so u DO think i PURPOSELY want to be different? well then i'm very sorry to tell that u are wrong. wrong in its own sense. i have an idea. and i dont wanna suppress it. cuz i think doing it would be very fun. FUN. in it's own sense. but to u, u think i used up all my brain juices just to come up with sth different. so that i can be different and special. am i right? really, then ur wrong about me. i have NEVER in my life done that. i can swear. whatever my thoughts were i say them out loud and clear. but u dont seem to believe me. and u contradict urself too. u think i MADE all of those up AND u think im selfish? like why would anyone do that? to earn a million bucks? i, for one thing, WOULD NEVER DO THAT. because it is FAKE and UNNATURAL. i do what that comes to mind first. yeah this is when u can call me selfish. even i admit that's rather selfish. but u dont EVEN THINK all these are real, are straight from my "heart". so how do u call me selfish? but i know whatever i say will not change ur mind about whatever that was in ur mind. so i will not waste my electricity anymore. have it your way. and in case u not know, it was long ended. Labels: haha
9:50 PM
yeah and ALSO, i did not deliberately try to be different just so (i quote myself) "there would be diff thoughts, diff creations. blah". no i didnt. why would i WANT to be different when i am normal? i so happen to be that way. really, i just HAPPEN to have different thoughts SOMETIMES and i'm backing myself up. again, u must draw the line. idea one. a normal person wants to be different. idea two. a not very normal and a bit different person knows herself and wants to be the way she is. so SINCE i AM a bit different SOMETIMES (according to my parents i'm such a pain in the knee for having diff thoughts that they hope i could be more "ting hua". =.= thats like TOTALLY different concepts okay.), i would like to REMAIN the way i am. not GO TO BE something else. i am not intending (at least right now) to change and follow my head. okay u know what. any amount of words would be a waste of time seeing i can NEVER express myself clearly so that's that. i dont care who i am but i just wanna follow my heart UNDER GIVEN CIRCUMSTANCES cuz i've made it loud and clear before MONEY AND HUMANITY ARE TWO THINGS THAT CAN CAUSE A PERSON TO TURN TO FOLLOW THEIR HEAD. er actually.. when u look at it EVEN deeper, it comes down to the heart again. but it's still cuz u WANT to, see? like, u want this erm, tablet. but it's so ex. okay so if u follow ur heart and ignore the money prob, u'd buy the comp. but if he doesnt follow his heart he wouldnt buy the tablet. cuz of money. but again it's cuz he dont WANT to waste money. it's not cuz money is sth he has to have or he'll die. and it's not like it ends at death. it depends on whether or not he WANTS to die. okay u know what i realized sth, NOTHING IN THE WORLD IS DEFINITE. maybe except for some academics stuff. cuz there can be laws and everything that seem to be "the end", but there ARE some people who just WANTS to go to jail. so it's not "the end" afterall. ... OMG THIS IS GETTING SO CONFUSING I DONT CARE ANYMORE YES AMANDA I WILL BE MYSELF. gah. i guess generalizing is just useless cuz even one person can be so complicated and contradicting. but still i rather follow my heart than follow my head. i'll give u another example tmr. OH YES NOW I KNOW WHY. THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS FOLLOWING UR HEART OR UR HEAD BECAUSE, NOTHING (again, except for some academic stuff) IS ABSOLUTELY RIGHT OR WRONG. THERE IS ONLY A "BETTER CHOICE" AND WHICH IS A BETTER CHOICE DEPENDS ON THE PERSON MAKING THE DECISION. EVEN IF THERE IS RIGHT OR WRONG, IT IS BASED ON UR LIANG XIN. IF U COULD DUI DE QI ZI JI FOR DOING WHATEVER THAT'S "WRONG". AND ANOTHER CASE, IT'D BE WRONG IN ITS OWN SENSE. like. 1 plus 1 equals to 2. not 3. and by that i mean it's MEANING not playing with words or punning or whatever. u cant say a person jaywalking is wrong because well, define wrong. wait i go check dict. hah how very clever of the dict. it's definition is "not correct". hah want to avoid it huh. now i go check "correct". omg scarely its defi is "not wrong"... =.= no the definition is "accurate, true, without any mistakes". so there u go. is a person jaywalking INACCURATE? is that FALSE? now i go check what's mistake. okay back to the circle "an action or opinion that is not correct". so. conclusion. WHAT EXACTLY IS CORRECT? RIGHT? WRONG? there is no clear definition that i know of right now. oh. maybe facts. like. it is purple. then u say its blue. then is wrong. is it wrong? okay i guess it's wrong. OMG TELL ME WHAT IS WRONG??? i know my dad will say "correct" is where most people do it so it's "correct". and 'wrong" is when u do sth when no one else does it. well THAT WOULD BE THE FIRST ANSWER THAT I'M GONNA CROSS OUT CUZ it IS WRONG IN IT'S OWN SENSE and also cuz it doesn fit at all. man this post is full of contradicting ideas... now i'm lost too. okay summary for myself: 1. there isnt such thing as head follower or heart follower cuz there isnt an absolute right or wrong, in the sense of.. decision. 2. even if it is wrong, it'd be due to humanity or it is wrong in its own sense. no, not so much of humanity. 3. just do what u WANT to instead of following ur heart. wait. doesn following ur heart means doing what u want?? OMG IM CONFUSED AGAIN. okok. lets look at it the other way. if u follow ur head, that means u r like forced to do sth u dun wan to do which in a sense, is the "correct" thing to do. but u still did it. why? it's cuz u dont WANT to get whatever punishment there is to it if u dont do it. so it's still about want or dont want in the end. but i thought about this this way too. u dont have to look at the other thing yet. about what u follow, just look at the THING itself. that means u ignore tha part where u want or dont want the punishment. and that'd be the line to draw. but i cant be sure if everything has such a clear line. okay let me ask u this. a student cheats. is it right or wrong? yes it's wrong in a sense cuz it's he himself that he has to answer. it's also wrong cuz he'd be not fair to the other student whom he copied from. so that's wrong? shouldnt there be more to it that makes cheating wrong??? this cant be all. and so what if he WANTS to cheat, it's still wrong. okay u know what i realized im still speaking from most people's POV. that cheating is "wrong". cuz i havent thought of how it can be right. lol. but even if this is not right, it cant really be wrong either right? cuz u mean right or wrong ONLY depends on humanity to others and urself? i dont really think so. SO WHY??? omgomgomg. okay maybe my life goal can be to figure this out. =.= and write a report a thousand page long with font size 5 and single line spacing. and force everyone to read it. MUAHAHAHAHA. kay i should off the comp liao, toodles! Labels: some thinking involved (:
8:57 PM
and yes, follow ur head and follow everyone else on earth and follow all the rules u can find, and let's see how u look like when ur in ur coffin. ---- I STILL REMAIN MY STAND FOLLOW UR HEART Labels: some thinking involved (:
8:55 PM
i have a question: isnt telling anyone (esp ur parents) "i'm pregnant" the same as "i had sex"? Labels: some thinking involved (:
8:53 PM
Saturday, June 14, 2008
last theory i'd like to stress on tonight: being a non-conformist/being different DOES NOT, ABSOLUTELY NOT equals to being wrong it's the wrongest/worst/most heartless/most inhumane/most ridiculous thought i can ever think of. really. and this one is not one which i will leave it to u to decide becuz, THIS IS CORRECT. a hundred percent. THEY DO NOT EQUATE, HEARD??? Labels: some thinking involved (:
9:12 PM
conformist. what is a conformist? a conformist is a person who chooses not to follow his heart cuz he doesnt want to be different from the rest/major population as he's afraid he'd get into trouble/wants to avoid trouble. leaving out the possibility of a thief commiting a crime, being a conformist is really heartless. to urself. i wouldnt say it's brainlesscuz he IS following his head afterall, giving his ideas a second thought so he wont get into trouble. yes. it is smart, i admit. now i understand why. it goes together in pair. heart-follower=non conformist. and head-follower=conformist. IT ALL MAKES SENSE. a head follower would do what is politically right so he wont get into trouble, at thesame time trying to be like everyone else. while a heart follower is a person who purely and fully and completely follows his heart, doesnt care if he gets into trouble or not, doesnt care if he's different from others. and look, we must know where the line draws. being a non conformist is not that u WANT to be one and thus u GU YI find some special things to do, to make u very different from the rest and everything. NO. u dont WANT TO BE A NON CONFORMIST. U WANT TO FOLLOW UR HEART. ONLY THEN u'D BE A CONFORMIST. cuz it's not sth u CAN BE. i'm not good with words but u get the idea? and i've finally seen it. MY PARENTSARE A HUNDRED PERCENT CONFORMIST. yes im sure. they are. which is why i always get into argumnts with them. and they complain about me being very troublesome cuz of having very different thoughts. so i tell them i didnt WANT TO HAVE diff thoughts, i just HAPPEN to have differentthoughts. u cant control what u think can u. if u say u can. then there u are, immediately, a head follower. i mean, of cuz u CAN control, but it depends on whether u WANT to control it. ppl who have thoughts diff from the rest but dont want to be diff, they control their thoughts and make themselves think like everyone else are a true conformist. and u must rmb, whatever their thoughts were, their very first thoughts which happened to be diff from the rest, are the most original thoughts ever. it's a hundred percent original. but being a conformist they kill their own originality and try to be the same as everyon else. no wonder there is not much creativity in this world. now everything falls into place, really. and my dad asks a good qns: if ur a nonconformist why dont u crawl instead of walk everyday then? well and i have a good answer. i didnt purposely not crawl istead of walk, it's because CRAWLING IN STEAD OF WALKING HAS NEVER EVEN COME ACROSS MY MIND. i dint even THINK of it, of cuz i didnt do it. but if i did thought of it, and WANT to do it, then being a non conformist i would do it. sure. and this applies to everything else. continuing from the previous-previous point, a conformist deprives himself of his own most original thoughts. not saying its wrong, becuz he might just WANT to do that. i'm saying from my point of view, that a person who deprives himself of this own thoughts are the most pathetic ever. no offence here. WHY CANT U JUST LET UR THOUGHTS BE? why make it man made? arent people talking about the conservation of nature in the recent years? yes its the same concept. CONSERVE UR OWN THOUGHTS, DONT DESTROY IT. it's like having deforestation okay. and u can imagine how it kills alll the living things in the forest. just like ur toughts, killed, just like that. where did all the creative juices go? but of cuz i cant be anyone to persuade anyone to be a non conformist becuz yeah i do respect ur idea, which is to avoid trouble. yes i know and i understand. who wants to get into jail? but here's an example, just cuz u want to prevent a forest firefrom occuring, u deforestate the whole area an build on buildings. well yeah, buildings are good for commercial use, housing, blablabla. but u destroyed nature, see? as easy as that. but again, which one means more u to, is again, ur own choice. u might think it's worth it. okay, then go with it. but to me, it'snot. simple as that. my own thoughts, didnt force u to think like i do. AND, i wanna stress on the importance of having individual originality. becuz if everyone is a conformist, then there really, is NOT the need to have 6.7 billion people on earth. i guess a handful would be more than enough, dont u? having so many people, is just so there's a VARIETY. of thoughts, creations, blah. get it? but in the end i will leave it o u to decide if u wanna follow ur heart an be a non conformist, cuz i respect ur thoughts too. ---- u have a head and a heart, which u choose to follow, is up to u. but just rmb, u're killing ur own originality when u choose to be a conformist. Labels: some thinking involved (:
8:36 PM
WELL HE-LLLLLLOOOOOOOOO GUYS! guess who's back? of course, it' nonetheless, ME! god feel so ego. hah yeah im back, landed in singapore at lik 5 am in the morn and no freaking one is in the freaking t3. and i reached home and i slept until 10. lol not like i idnt sleep in the plane lor. i was almost sleeping thru the WHOLE flight except for the supper part where the supper was super gross. the only nice thing was kitkat =.= AND U KNOW WHAT I REALIZE???? I HAVE NOT COMPLETED ANY HOLS HW SO FAR. yes, ANY. an it's like one week to sch-ropen.... GOD IM REALLY DEAD. AND NEXT WK, 4 days are gonna be dedicated to CO and cip. SIAN. AND NXT NEXT WEEK, which i dread ALOT, im gonna go to sch in m haircut WHICH, can be VERY SHOCKING if u have gotten to used t seeing me with long hair. really. i'vehand long hair since like p5 i think. and im warning u ppl u better not laugh okay cuz its not like i'm obsessed with my haircut. so. YAY GOING TO ANNUAL IT SHOW LATER AND I. SQUIGGLER. AM. GONNA. GET. MY. TABLET. PC. onething about me is that i always get what i want. no not cuz ive nice parents but cuz i have the determination to get it. lol okay thats not very true. and to round everything off china was quite fun. except for one line which almost ALL my relatives said which i REALLY HATED. guess what. and okay i better go now. toodles! -------- FOLLOW YOUR HEART (:
11:34 AM
Thursday, June 12, 2008
i guess everyone has to go through a time when they lost themselves, and asks the same qns over and over, who am i? now it's my turn. ask myself: am i still that cheerful, happy, very ME, wears-pink-miniskirt-and-big-rabbit-ears, very disney, very hopeful, very squiggler-ish, very... ME person? or have i become a fake person whom i dont really know well who just wants to be alone? or am i both? i think im both. but that doesnt make sense either, becuz these 2 are the complete opposite of each other. why would a happy and hopeful person wanna be sad and emo? no i say i wouldnt do that. but sometimes i JUST FEEL that way. which is why i have no idea who i am anymore. sometimes im happy, then other times i feel like im totally another person, a sad person who yes, just wants to be alone. but actually, why do people even bother who they are? why do people wanna know the answer to "who am i?"? does it really matter? knowing who u are? so what if u know ur this kind of person? u live the same, dont u? or maybe cuz if u havent the ans, u would feel living very meaningless? but that doesnt really make sense, anyway... really, just WHY do people always lose themselves and ask themselves who am i? maybe its cuz they got too invovled in sth else that thet lost their principle in life...? then when they finally take a step back and take a look from far, they realize they've changed quite alot. and maybe thats when they start asking themselves who am i, the older person they used to be or this new person they've just become. who's the real ME? then again, how would u know the ans to this question. what does the ans depends on? whether u like being this person more of that person more? whether u feel more comfortable being this than being that? whether others prefer u as this or that? whether what? how do u determine? how does this phase end, i wonder. i guess i will never get an answer. or will i? it's almost cliche, this question. but to everyone it has a different meaning. damn. is this where the line "two roads diverged in a yellow wood" comes in? are these 2 choices and i have to decide on one? which will determine who i am? but that's quite dumb. how can one decision determine u for ur life? no matter how important that decision is, it should not eventually determine a person. cause life is not just about ONE thing, ONE decision. what the hell am i crapping anyway. i never used to crap about things like that. or at least i dont think i have. so why am i now? i have no idea. okay that was stupid =.= but ohwell. im sure i'll get to know. eventually. let's hope it's soon. god i hate this feeling of losing myself. really, "i dont know who i am anymore" and this sucks cuz it feels like ur soul-less. no. should say, feels like ur a hanging soul. dunno where to go dun understand itself at all. yeah i dont understand myself. i'm a myth myself. everyone is. okay yeah i just thought of it as i was writing this im gonna put "follow ur heart" at the end of every post starting from this post so that (hopefully) i wont offend anyone with what i write in my posts, i can express my thoughts as ONLY MY THOUGHTS and wont get SUED and also people wouldnt have to think like me as they rea dmy posts so here goes: i aint the only one who has a heart, follow ur heart (: Labels: some thinking involved (:
10:31 PM
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
selfish person. u think whatever u want u like all the others will want and like too right? u think ur the STANDARD. u think people revovle around u. u didnt even ask forTHEIR opinion before u started hammering. they SAID they dont like it. but yay u completely ignored them and started hammering LIKE IT'S UR HOUSE look at the wall now, it's completely ruined yeah well all thanks to YOU u can do whatever u want to your own house, really, I DONT GIVE A DAMN even if i live under the same roof as u as long as u dont lay a single hair of yours on MY ROOM u know ur just a selfish person who dont put other's opinion into view u think ur the best. did they even like it? NO. u can TELL from their reaction when u asked them about it, obviously they didnt like it at all and there u are thinking it was MOST WONDERFUL piece ever and started to hammer on nails. a nice beautiful wall, now with 4 nails. just think of how it destroys the wwhole wall when they arent there anymore. ARE U STUPD OR WHAT IT"S A ONE WAY TICKET cuz there's ONLY ONE OF THAT KIND and u totally didnt bother u TOTALLY ACTED WITHOUT THINKING and that was SO SO STUPID because once uve hammer on nails u can NEVER remove them. u can remove them physically but the hole will still be there and WHO WANTS THAT STUPID LOOKING THING ON THEIR WALL ALL YEAR ROUND??? GOD I CANT BELIEVE UR SO DAMN EFFING SELFISH. u totally ruined it. it's THEIR PLACE they've a RIGHT to do WHATEVR they want to it. forget the fact ur their daughter, it's THEIR PLACE. NO PARENTS NO CHILDREN HAVE THE RIGHT TO INVADE THEIR PARENTS' CHILDRENS' WHATEVER. REALLY. AND I MEAN IT. cant believe i missed this about u they didnt like it and u TOTALLY FORCED them to have it. what the hell are u doing?? if u like it so much, i wont give an F if u hang it in ur own house, ur own room, ur own toilet ur own bed, really, WHATEVER. u suck. ur a selfish bitch. THE END. and dont touch me either. keep ur hands off me
7:38 AM
Sunday, June 8, 2008
where are u??!! u know i had a dream ytd, i dreamt that the who came back. and i was GASPING. how i wish it'd be a dream come true.
8:17 PM
i just read a few nce lines from my blog. LOL SO EGO but ion 2nd reading i found them very meaningful. haha. "they work everyday like there's no tomorrow. hey, why not ENJOY everyday like there's no tomorrow??" " ohmygod i cant rmb anymore. darn me. well i shall keep u posted. oh i saw from my msn pm: smile, what;s the use of crying? from westlife song smile. "but what creates the mess and confusion is that many times in life it's the sand that makes u most happy." "at worlds end: and look ahead. what do u see? ... yes, we're only meters from the cliff. and if we're stubborn enough to keep on running and speeding, we're be screaming for our lifes off the cliff before we know it."
5:52 PM
btw u know china has this gao kao thing now and everyone makes it SOOOO STRESSFUL. its so unnecessary okay. they even had to sterilize the water cooler. ... and everyone's over reacting about tthat stupid earthquake and tremors and rain and ice. god i iwsh they could stop being so wu sensitive. and i seriously dunno how to do LA and history. SOS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
12:52 PM
omg today was damn fun even though didnt get to go movie world in the ehd. u know WHAT. that damn ticket was damn expensive. it's renminbi 240. like, 48 sing dollar. FOR WHAT??? so ex. it shouldnt even be the same price as disneyland's ticke okay. afterall it isnt as well-known as disneyland... granbdpa was quite angry, cuz theticket so ex then "bai pao yi tang" all the way from around 15 mrt stops before... so wewent to this "garden" it was real pretty with a dam. lol. the dam very nice cuz u can go sit at the slope place. then got wind at the highest point there. very very very nice then u now it was chao funny of us cuz: we alighted the "mrt" at that stop then as soon as we walked out from the station this guy in a van called to us asking if we needed a ride from there to the garden thingy. then grandad said okay then took that van. that van was like, what, hei che. then the guy looked like huai ren also. then on the car i thought he was going to kidnap me and my grandpa and ask for a HUGE ransom from our family =.= okay apparaently he didnt and is a nice guy. =.= then he rao rao rao go to some ulu place then dropped us at a REALLU ulu placae. yeah. cuz according to him, like that can save ticket money. haha, that makes us "tou du ke". LOL. okay so we alighted at that very ulu place. there got fence. fence got hole. so we went thru the hole to climb this hill. real tiring, the ascending part. then walk walk walk in the "shen shan lao lin". lol. actually is not lor, cuz everyday got people go thru there, just to escape paying for the ticket. =.= cuz on the ground got the like, tracks, left by other "tou du ke-s" LOL. really. so we follow the tracks. it was so fun kay walking in those forety place. then not hot at all, just abit, bright. yeah the bright sun. but not hot,. very cooling, the weather. VERY NIE. then the trees all very tall and slender. haha. very natural-ish and pretty (: then walkwalkwalk FINALLY see some real road. and guess what. a woman on the road, almost as if waiting for "tou du ke-s". lol she asked for tickets we didnt have so we bought. LOL. like get caught cheating. so yeah. then guang ming zheng da went inside th garden and u know inside got alot of ppl live de. then the roads all muddy. its so fun walking in mud okay! its so sticky and stuff. but very scared jeans get dirty =.= yeah. then saw dam. which yeah wa s very nice and took photo. and later saw a wedding. hen the mum of the dunno guy or girl is making a pseech on stage. lol. since when was this necessary? and the deco around the garden was very prety too. got pnk and red balloons everywhere. then we went out guang ming zheng da from the front gate this time lol and there was this nice fountain too, near the front gate. reminded me of lucy again =.= walkt back to mrt and went home. so that was how i spent my shang wu. pretty fun. though i still wanna go movie world. lol. and later gotta meet my "cousins" who are my mum's mum's siblings' children. yeah. god u know what i always hate about coming back. have to meet this meet that and they ALWAYS say something in common. who can guess i shall give a reward of.. a bubbletea. haha. AND I ALWAYS HATE THAT COMMON COMMENT FROM THEM. I ABSOLUTELY HATE IT. as much as i have to smile to cover it all. (haha isnt that a clue already) yeah i gtg toodles!
12:22 PM
Friday, June 6, 2008
Labels: quizzes
1:49 PM
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