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Friday, October 31, 2008
GAH I DUNNO FOR HOW LONG MORE I CAN HOLD IT. I JUST WANNA SCREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! now there's no one left whom i can talk to. some became numb and some found a better friend. I FEEL SO TRAPPED I CANT DO ANYTHING BUT ALL THE WHILE I CANT STAND NOT DOING ANYTHING. i'm just so afraid of what it might turn out to be. dont dare to TAKE A CHANCE. one wrong step and the whole thing might just.. collapse, after so much time and effort has been spent on it to build it, rebuild it, and rebuild it. but it's been too long and im not a person with much patience as anyone can tell. but since i held it for so long already, i can do it for another few months? years? until it's gone? completely, totally, gone? i just cant imagine it NOT being there. it's feel weird. it'd be like there's a huge empty space somewhere within me. it wouldnt seem right. i wouldnt feel complete. am i going to stay like that for the rest of my life? if i'm certain im getting something in return eventually i wouldnt mind staying like that for another ten twenty years or forever gah i'm talking crap dont listen to me. I JUST NEED TO VENT. so many things. SOO MANY THINGS. one, two, three things. yeah, three things on my mind now dunno which to deal with first it's too much to handle for a 14 year old im pretty much stressed out again (sorry nicole) oh last person online. ohwell. GGGGAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH... next year is sooooooooooooooooooo dreaded. so is every minute from now on. i have spent one seventh of my life with 101'07/201'08 then suddenly. and it isnt as easy as it sounds espeically when... this sucks i dunno how to face it i dunno what else to do i dunno how long more i can withstand all these before i finally really scream or shout it to you i cant do it i dont have the courage i ALWAYS miss things. "hey look he looks like ..." "huh where where????" "nvm cant see already" i always. it always happens to me im slow but i wasnt born to be slow i dunno what im talking im just crapping relieving but it doesnT HELP I STILL FEEL DAMN ..... I DUNNO TRAPPED WITHIN MYSELF? CONSTIPATED? here's 3 words 201 used oftenly: constipated, qian bian, bao qian. here's 3 songs 201 listens to: you are my soniya, the zai gei wo liang fen zhong song, OH WHATEVER WHAT IF ONE DAY I TELL WHAT WOULD YOU DO WOULD U HATE ME WOULD YOU LOVE ME WOULD YOU... too much of a risk so i cant do it im a coward i cant do it im sleepy and i dont even want to face it and go sleep oh. GAH. what am i to do someone tell me i feel like im suffocating OMG gah i dunno i dunno anything everything is blurry to me i cant see things clearly they're so pixelated and the zoom out button's not working so i cant see that damn full picture and GOSH i dunno what im seeing i dunno what i;m doing i dont have the courage, never did never had. i dont know what to do doing this wont be right doing that wont be right what AM I supposed to do i feel like going down to run and scream and cry for god knows what reason. im not sad over it i dont even know what im feeling. at a lost? perhaps? DESPERATE? FOR ANSWERS. that'll be it. i'm so desperate yet there's nothing i can do ad all i CAN do is to look and stare and look and stare and see things going on and on and not doing anything baout it letting time fly by and each day becoming more and more weak and numb and distant in the end it'll just disappear i'll just die with a bullet hole (how contradicting) OHNO GOODBYE.. and i ended on 12:35AM THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR MAKING ME STAY UP UNTIL SO LATE NO ITS NOT UR FAULT JINGWEN AND NICOLE. GAH i will delete his post once ive calmed down over you. and really all i can see now is pixels and nothing else. im moving around up and down looking at this and that at zoomed in view. and we all know how dizzy it can get to look at sth fully zoomed in. how i wish it would just work so i can get the full picture i want to see it now i cant and shouldnt wait any longer or the battery might just die i dunno what'll happen to the camera i... OH MY GAY GOD TODAY'S NOVEMBER ALREADY SO MANY YEARS HAVE PASSED it's officially the school holidays i DONT WANT THE SCHOOL HOLIDAYS i wat ot go back to sch like we always did i want to go into the 201 classroom like we always did i want to hang out with the 201ers like we always did. it'll be real boring during the holidays memories of things will just come flooding back then i'll be helpless again i feel choked. and i made a realization. if enough people wants time to stop, it will stop. time is controlled by humans anyway. growing physically older doesnt mean time has passed by.i dont know why either but i believe it's not the only way what only way i also dont know what WAY i have NO IDEA i dont know if only i could change a concept. if only i could change some concepts. that would be the most selfish thing ever though but dont all of us want time to stop somewhen somewhere in our lives i dont know my muscles are aching real bad from ytd's struggle with the tides and sand now i relize how much effort i put into it and WE put into it. my neck hurts, back hurts as usualweirdly butt hurts i didnt know butt has muscles my legs hurt so bad i cant walk after ssitting down for 5 or more minutes s it's been a whole week since i first watched hsm3 i cant believe it it felt just like ytd we sat down and stuff it's oging to be one soon it 12:48 im tired i want to sleep i have so much to say when i really dont how contradicting again OH WHATEVER I GOING OFF. 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11:39 PM
GAH. THAT DAMN HSSRP WEBSITE SUCKS IT DOESNT HAVE CLEAR INSTRUCTIONS AND IT AUTO LOGS OUT FOR YOU WHEN TIME OUT IT'S LIKE.. OR MAYBE IM REALLY SLOW OR SOMETHING AND IT'S SO DAMN QIANBIAN CUZ ITS LIKE WHEN I DIDNT FINISH FILLING UP THE FORM I CAN PRESS THE BUTTON SUBMIT BUT WHEN I FINISH FILLING UP THEN CANNOT PRESS ALREADY. WHAT KIND OF THING IS THIS??? if only i could give a feedback on their damn website man
11:39 PM
the last day of school has passed and ended. it's so hard to believe. ytd we were still saying there's one more day and this morning in the car i still clearly rmbed my dad telling me on first day of school 2008 that many parents are sending their kids to school which explains the jam on the first day of school. and suddenly. one school year passed. its real hard to believe how time works. or how slowly the human brain functions. almost literally in the blink of an eye. i feel jealous of the sec 1s now. they dont have to feel sad or anything. at least we made our last day a memorable one. a very VERY memorable one. the hc uniform thing was way fun and we're the only special class which can come up with this kind of brilliant idea. no any other class can replace us. duh that goes for every class but, i think we're just one very bonded and different class. i cant imagine any one of us in any other classes. it'd seem so odd. and i guess it's not about SEEING each other that matters it's the fact that we're together AS A CLASS. we'll no longer be called "201" from next year onwards. and we can see one another but the bond might fade as time passes by. and 2 things i want to comment on the script, though not as if we could turn time back and change it and all (IF ONLY WE COULD). first "201 will be forgotten". it will not. never. it'll live in all 36 of us's memories. although it might be thrown to the back of our heads for a long time. but somehow, when we suddenly found photos of 201 and maybe even blog entries, all the memories will come back. so it wont be forgotten. and we dont hope that it'll be forgotten anyway, do we? and "math-sy" isnt the best word we could use to describe ms teng! i think she's much more than a math teacher. we all know that, right? anyway, today was a nice and happy day. wanxin joined in our murderer and detective game and dorothy cried and all. in the end, we ARE just one big family, although some of us get left out at times and stuff. but we are still a class. 201'08. and it's the best class yet. I LOVE 201'08 AND I WILL MISS OUR CLASS. we're the most bonded class in this sec 2 cohort. cjh told mrng only our class cried and msyap said our speech was (was it?) touching. oh and i heard that daoxiang song on radio 100.3 just now on the car and everything came back to me. and i want the next week to pass by as slowly as possible. and i hate the fact that "time passes fast when you're having fun". it's a real life proof of how things can never be perfect i guess. Labels: some thinking involved (:
10:00 PM
Thursday, October 30, 2008
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH! i LOVE the hwachong uniform it looks damn nice. or shall i say, i think i look better in hc uniform than in ny uniform? hahahahaha i totally wish i was a guy. gosh this uniform DAMN COOL! and im wearing it as im blogging! ahahahaha yeah im a bit crazy i guess. like since when did ny girls like the hc uniform?? BUT IT'S SO NICE NOW! lol hmm i think it's nice cuz the shirt's looong. like, as compared to hongzi, which has been proven a SQUARE. long shirts are cooler when u dont have to tuck them in! i hope shirley lee wont make us tuck in the shirts. and say sth like "if you want to wear it then wear it properly". o.o which i can really imagine her saying. and well i guess she's nice enough to let us wear at least. and spray our hair?! and gah as much as i look forward to tomorrow the extremely FUN and SAD day, i dread it. cuz it kinda marks our last day as a class. ): and i dont think we fit in anywhere else other than 201. it's where WE belong. it doesnt seem to me like we would get along well with 202 203 204 205 206 207 208 209 210 211 212 213 all the other classes. gosh i feel so sad. i bet i will cry tomorrow. ahh tomorrow i will forget about all the hate and stuff and love every single 201er and enjoy our last official school day together. it's our last chance. i feel like dedicating a song to the class, just that no one's so obsessed over hsm3 than any of those emo chinese songs, but still it comes from my heart(you might think the song is cliche but it's really not, on this occasion): WE’RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER (GRADUATION VERSION) Together, together, together everyone Together, together, come on let’s have some fun Here and now it’s time for celebration I finally figured it out (yeah yeah) That all our dreams have no limitations That's what it’s all about Everyone is special in their own way We make each other strong (we make each other strong) We’re not the same We’re different in a good way Together's where we belong We're all in this together Once we know That we are We're all stars And we see that We're all in this together And it shows When we stand Hand in hand Make our dreams come true Together, together, together everyone Together, together, come on let’s have some fun Together, we’re there for each other every time Together, together come on let’s do this right We're all here and speaking out with one voice we're gonna rock the house (yeah yeah) the party's on now everybody make some noise come on scream and shout We've arrived because we stuck together Champions one and all We're all in this together Once we know That we are We're all stars And we see that We're all in this together And it shows When we stand Hand in hand Make our dreams come true We're all in this together (together) We're all in this together Once we know That we are We're all stars And we see that We're all in this together And it shows When we stand Hand in hand Make our dreams come true We're all in this together When we reach We can fly Know inside We can make it We're all in this together Once we see There’s a chance That we have And we take it We’re all in this together We’re all in this together anyway, i think if they're to award prizes for the build-a-city thing at sentosa, i'm sure we would get first. we put in so much effort and teamwork, put all our hearts into making the best "city" ever. and we never gave up. (though the tides came in for so many times and we screamed in disappointment for so many numerous times) we never stopped until the judges came. that's why i'm so proud of 201!! u know i saw ms teng looking at our "city" for a long time. like she was thinking thinking thinking. haha i bet she was thinking 201 has done a really great job and lived up to her expectations in fact passed her expectations and that she is so proud of 201 too! oh and i'm real red from all the sun... o.o and this morning chao funny everyone was going "who wants to be my girlfriend??" and "... you want to be my girlfriend??" then when someone says "yes" then the guy will go "yay i love you!!" haha soooo funny. and i rmb when jackie agreed it felt like some "i do" thing. hahaha GOSH im sooo high now!!! which explains my above few paragraphs of crap and no sense talking. anyway, my goals for tmr: 1. only love and not hate. ANYONE, ANYTHING. 2. only be happy and not sad. clear ur unhappiness in 3 seconds and get over it. 3. tell yourself "it's the last official day" when your unhappy. 4. HUG EVERYONE. Labels: some thinking involved (:
8:48 PM
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
i just saw this and i think it's real interesting: "HSM was the start of something new. HSM2 was 'fabulous'. And HSM3...what can I swear? You cant Walk Away from it. The Boys Are Back and when they do you SCREAM. At the theatres, i thought it was A Night To Remember. And I cry when I heard that the're all in this together" haha very nice huh!
11:11 PM
close the door, CLICK you lock it. shut the door, CLICK you lock it. is this what singapore/HDB has to offer? Labels: some thinking involved (:
9:51 PM
lalalala. we have ASSIGNMENT. like, after eoys. and we cant anyhow do. sigh. they think we have time to do everything and live healthily. well maybe everyone else can. but i can't. so im not asking for any changes in whatever just saying what i feel. and whatever. and yesterday i got so excited when the teacher mentioned "high school musical" and "troy bolton" and NO it is NOT because i like it alotalot and got very excited. i was veryveryvery extremely excited when SOMEBODY actually ACKNOWLEDGES the EXISTENCE of hsm, and thinks it's worth in a sense. and so happy about the the fact that she even MENTIONED it. normal people would just go, oh, hsm? oh yeah i guess it's okay. or may hates it to the core or whatever. but SHE MENTIONS IT. and she goes into DETAIL which was why i got so excited at the mentioning of "troy bolton". SHE bothers, SHE has that HEART. i so appreciate people like that. and i cant get a certain sweet taste out of my mouth and it is VERY gross and annoying. all thanks to that coffee sweet and strawberry milkshake i ate/drank before i slept at around FIVE. yes which leads back to my unhealthy lifestyle. i feel my house i turning into some long forgotten rusty place and all i do at home is to get shelter and the car has turned into a i dont know what because no one's too free to go clean it and everywhere's like a dump my room's very untidy (not like it ever was tidy anyway) but now it's just more untidy and theres a file under my bed and random content things on my table and i havent done my assignment. i really wont put in a hundred percent effort. just say sorry i've used up all my brain cells for eoys and since im a SLOW person, it takes an extraordinarily long time for my brain cells to re-generate. so that explains the rather crappy work and (cantabile) THEN i'm gonna get a scolding... i realized ghan is no reflective while msteng is very reflective. msteng is soooooo nice. and i HATE macs. why does everyone love it so much? i bet its cuz of the photoshoot thing. but it's SO DAMN HARD to use. sorry too harsh just venting my hate for macs. okay and now i really AM happily procrastinating my assignment without stress or pressure cuz hah i suddenly feel i have all the right in the world to give some crap answers (and like DUH i have). so anyway i shall describe my typical boring life as a sec 2 ny girl with 2 working parents and as the only child. so maybe you can sympathize with me. so i go home at a average 5pm. on the bus i get very sleepy. when i reach home and am supposed to shower, i go lie on the bed instead because im just too tired to do anything. and i tell myself, "just lying down resting, no sleeping." and then im off to dreamworld. maybe around one and a half to 2 hours later suddenly "RING RING!" and i ignore the phone, wanting to get more rest. continues to ring and me still sleepy picks up the phone and goes "hello?..." and the other end goes "what do you want to eat for dinner" then i go sleepily "i dont know.." and he/she says blah. and i says blah. and put down the phone and sleepily decides i have to get up. and then i either wash up or go shower like i did today so my hair could dry. then they come home and we take about half an hour or so deciding what to eat and where to go for dinner then we finally go for dinner and we end dinner at an average eight thirty and come home and do random non productive stuff or i go shower and then continue doing non-productive stuff until an average eleven and that's when we turn off the lights and go sleep, again. now, TELL ME TO GET A LIFE. and DAMN it's soooo HOT these days i thought the monsoon season's coming??? and for last week i rained like EVERYDAY at around 6 plus cuz i rmb going home after aep and it's always raining and zoom this week the earth either accelerated at full speed towards the sun or the sun has suddenly gotten more attractive or the earth decided to suck up to the sun. and the air con... still generates fake air, that makes breathing feel weird and all. and today, i realized the importance of music education at a young age.
9:26 PM
Monday, October 27, 2008
banglahs. looking at them gives me a sense of ... happiness. i always think they are so so fortunate to be here in singapore! although they are really here for work, but the environment here is so good, and they have friends here, and they dont really have to worry about much things besides earning money. and most of the time they look like they have enough money to get some mp3 and good clothes. and some yummy food. isnt that mostly what they need? i mean, they dont go for cars and big houses and stuff. i dont know, i may be wrong about it all.. but still i look at them and i feel so lucky FOR THEM, u know. sore throat. in contrary to popular beliefs, when you have a sore throat, the following are (unrecommendedly) recommended: 1. stay under the hot sun and sweat 2. talk a lot 3. dont drink too much water 4. dont drink too little water 5. simply drink the amount u drink everyday. 6. DO NOT EAT STREPSILS. 7. DO NOT EAT PI PA GAO. 8. EAT TAN KE JING. (DAMN NICE!!!) so yeah. i went for rehearsals with a sore throat this morning and stayed under the sun and talked and drank and i came back almost fully healed. like, it's so AMAZING!!!! and my mum was still putting credits on the 2 yellow pills she gave me last night. well if they had worked i wouldnt have woken up this morning still having a sorethroat, would i? (and i really meant it as a question cuz i really dont know how they take effect) and they said it was cuz u swallow saliva so it can moisten ur throat or sth. so next time i get a sore throat im going to be extra talkative lol. drama. ah. finally done with rehearsals. well not exactly since the real thing's still 2 to 3 weeks away but whew at least everything's decided and all laid out properly now. all we gotta do is.. rehearse and rehearse and rehearse again. now that sounds VERY contradicting huh. and i LOVE our dances it's so cool when everyone does the ballroom thing together!!! AND OH NO im kinda dreading cca tmr... sigh. cuz it means going home at 6pm... and well rmb what i said about unrecommendedly recommended? cuz now, i'm COUGHING. which is even worse. shucks. what a false recovery. hah i believe thats the right term to use? sian tmr got sch must wake up early what r we doin tmr anyway?? and i dont understand why i got sick of the air con recently. its like i felt very very hot and sweaty so i on it. but then, although its cooler, it felt very.... weird. maybe artificial? maybe a sense of being enclosed? i just cant describe it it feels so weird and horrible. like the air was fake or sth. and now im sweating by just sitting down and theres no way im on-ing that fake-air generater. and have i mentioned how i felt/feel towards the whole zac efron thing? it's almost as if watching him grow up, if you've watched hsm1 2 and 3. and now he MIGHT even be replacing johnny depp who is like LEGENDARY. and before hsm1 he was just this little guy okay not LITTLE literally with no arm muscles whatsoever and now tada, he's too expensive for disney. i just hope he wouldnt turn into one of those hollywood brats who are egoistic and wants only fame and money. he's a nice young person. cant bear to see him get out there and become one of them (famous hollywood star. well, not as if he isnt already one of them). uhhhh this is how a mum feels about her children? O.O okay ive a feeling im gonna be naggy and all if i continue so TA.
9:21 PM
gah having a bad sore throat and u know whats worse? STREPSILS does NOT seem to help AT ALL. it just makes my throat more sticky andmore SORE. and everyone tells me im not eating enough and blahblahblah. everyone makes me sound as if im ANOREXIC. things like "you dont eat because you dont hve APPETITE". WHATTHEHELL. i DO NOT dont have appetite okay. at times i feel like eating everything i see. and i dont understand. i eat EVERY meal. just that im not actually BLOATED at every meal. but, who really gets bloated at EVERY meal??? and they complain i eat too little and is too thin and stuff. i just dont understand. and ytd i had this dream that we were taking math eoys. (oh for heaven's sake...) and we had to go to some look-like-suntec-city-convention-hall those kinda places for the exams where there were escalators outside and yeah i was saying how the stupid hall creates an oppressive atmosphere because they VERY ODDLY placed blue chairs on the ceiling, kinda like hund upside down or sth. so the whole place was not only dark, but blue. and the ceiling was dripping water too, just like the in LT. lol. guess i still havent gotten over that stupid exam pressure yet huh. ohwell. and it's a whole day off from quality time at home i guess. and today's my dad's birthday so HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD! even though he would never read this. ps i realize i'm beginning to type more and more things that doesnt come out right. i was thinking of typing "this" and i totally typed "it" for god-knows-what reason. then i had to backspace and type again. sometimes i really feel my hands/eyes/mouth/fingers/whereever has disconnected itself to the brain. what a scary thought.
8:44 AM
Saturday, October 25, 2008
i realized the ending of hsm3 is very nice. and very sweet.
1:23 PM
AND OH MY. HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL IS ALSO ANOTHER NICE SONG. IT SO CONNECTS TO THE AUDIENCE. YES IM SO GONNA "HOLD ON TO HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL" AS I "STEP INTO THE FUTURE" CUZ "WHO SAYS WE HAVE TO LET IT GO?" OMGOMGOMGOMOGMOMG I LOVE THIS SONG TOO!!!!!!!!!!! makes me wonder why i didnt feel o tocuhed by this song ytd. maybe its cuz i didnt know the lyrics ytd. OMG I TOTALLY LOVE THE IDEA OF THIS SONG. THE PERSON WHO THOUGHT OF PUTTING THIS SONG AT THE END, IS A TOTAL GENIUS. IT'S SO COOL. like HWIHC movie have this kind of thing? IT'S SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO NICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL REALLY REALLY SERIOUSLY CONNECTS TO THE AUDIENCE. Labels: some thinking involved (:
12:49 PM
listening to we're all in this together graduation version, i realized hsm REALLY came a long way. initially no one from the cast thought hsm was gonna be such a big blast and everything. and look at now. and i noticed one thing. zac efron didnt really have such obvious arm muscles in hsm1 and in hsm3, you can see his huge veins on his huge arm muscles. i think in the end, it'll still be we're in this together song that represents hsm the best. the orignal's always the best, in a sense. and the song sounds so heavenly and beautiful it just makes me cry. and the whole scene look so heavely too whats with white and red graduation robes. and swaying swaying....... well it wasnt so touching in the movie since this song qwas only playing softly in the background and there's people speaking over it. so couldnt really feel it. but listen to the soundtrack and IT'S THE BEST SONG EVER just go LISTEN to it. the VOICES are sooo..... beautiful. that it makes me cry. i cant believe a totally joyous and fast song can become so slow and nice. whoever idea this was from. I THINK HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL SERIES MAKES THE BEST CONNECTIONS TO ITS OWN SERIES AND I THINK KENNY ORTEGA AND THE REST OFTHE CREW AND CAST ARE THE BEST EVER. and i mean it.
12:24 PM
WOOHOO!!!!!!!!! THE MOVIE WAS THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I totally said i would be willing to pay a hundred bucks for it. and i phrased it that way cuz right now i dont remember how is it very fantastic honestly, cuz of the after-movie talk and distractions. anyway i shall still do a review, kinda: the movie, well, is best out of the 3. it was really sweet. REALLY sweet. and it was also really sad. because it is almost exactly like how we're gonna be separating next year. so it's like very coincidental we're on the same.. themes? whatever's the right term. so it links and appeals to real life and thus making it very... APPEALING since my vocab's real litmited. uhhh okay ANYWAY. yeah song's are really nice. i guess its just too good to be described because i have no idea why i totally dont remember why it's so nice. its just so sweet i cried. and i guess i got over something long ago. so that bit didnt hit me that hard. I WOULD CONSIDER HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL a classic of the 21st century. i heard one of the girls sitting bhind us saying sth like the first movie i'll let my child watch is high school musical. haha. and speaking of the girls behind, one of them kept going like "what the fuck?" in this indian tone, that i really thought she was indian, until jingwen said they werent. they kept giving comments, like, "bitch" to sharpay. I AM SO GONNA GET THE HSM3 SOUNDTRACK AND DVD ASAP. and if u've ANY interest in watching the movie, u should go watch it. INFACT, THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE MY HEADLINE: THE WORLD IS ENCOURAGED TO WATCH HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3. and I LOVE KENNY ORTEGA. HE'S THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and hsm3 made manymany links to hsm1 and 2. that's really nice too. i want to watch it over and over again!! like for a thousand times!!!! and discover new stuff everytime. and i have a feeling i wont get tired of it!!! ANDAND THERE WERE SOME REALLY AWESOME DANCE MOVES. THAT I SO WANNA LEARN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! child version of troy and chad were SOOOOOOOO CUTE the whole cinema literally screamed "SO CUUUUTE!!!!!!!!" really. or maybe we were just too loud. i dunno. i like the last song. called High School Musical. i like the lyrics too. i like many of the lyrics. just that i think all the songs are more messy as compared to hsm1 in the way that it's harder to sing along to it cuz there's more voices ands stuff. oh but for some weird reasons they didnt have the hoodie part that everyone thought was REALLY COOL. hmm maybe it;s just for ad or maybe its in some extended edition? ahh and this concludes the hsm series i guess. so sad. but it has come a really long way. the crew the school the settings the director. it feels real heart-warming to see the same props used as in hsm1. it kinda relates to the past and it feels really nice. and us the hsm fans came a long way too. 3 years. cant believe the first time i heard about hsm was in 2006... feels so long ago and yet just like ytd. it's like suddenly, in the blink of an eye, all 3 movies came out. and it really just feel like recently that i invited friends over to catch hsmTWO. wow.. I LOVE HSM3! I GIVE IT 10 out of 5 stars!!!!!!!!!! ps i realized i changed my mind just in this post. do u realize what i changed my mind on?? and i SO feel like watching the movie all over again, this time with popcorns and lyrics. ha-ha.
12:22 AM
Thursday, October 23, 2008
i read meizhen's long post and it's so nice and so touching!! i bet i'll cry when if i read it again next year. but i found out this analogy. separation, just treat it like bread and butter. there's going to be loads in the future, so many, you dont even have time to be sad about. and since there's so many separation, it means there's also going to be many.. new people. and this is not the analogy. so. yeah when your eating the bread and butter, you enjoy it, enjoy the taste the smell, everything, every, single, bite. and just like separation, cant bear to finish the last bite, cant bear to leave the last time you're together, as a class. but it's really just bread and butter. even though you may not taste nicer bread and butter in the future, you'll still taste nicer other-things like maybe a chocolate cake! (and that is the other things, other than friendship, that will keep you going in life. i hope) and u know what? you cant just leave and keep the bread cuz u cant bear to finish it because, someday, it'll rot. and grow mould and look gross. so. same as this. when it has to go, it has to go. although it's really humans controlling, but in a way it's natural too. and not keeping the bread and butter physically doesnt mean you cant keep it mentally. remembering the taste and smell, is a way. but of course if one chooses to not remember it, it's okay too. either way, you'll continue living life with new things and more things. so dont grieve over something that's ending soon too much. just enjoy and get the best out of it while you still can. and when it's done and over, dont be sad either because you know there's still so many things out there waiting for you. look on the POSITIVE side. PS: sorry so destroy-the-atmosphere but TOMORROW IS THE PREMIERE OF HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMGOMGOMGOMG CANT BELIEVE IM WATCHING IT JUST TOMORROW!!!!!!!! I HAVE HIGH EXPECTATIONS SO KENNY, YOU BETTER NOT DISAPPOINT ME!! PSS: WOOHOOO!!!! 201 GOT FIRST IN PLATE!!!!!!!!!!!!! 201 ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PSSS: school of rock aint very nice. though rather entertaining. high school musical is much nicer. to me. PSSSS: after much thought i prefer video workshop to cca. and after much thought too today's filming was fun. and funny. esp the ahemahem part. lol. PSSSSS: it's funny how fun and funny looks funnily alike but mean different things. PSSSSSS: STREET OF CROCODILES IS EXTREMELY NICE ALTHOUGH I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT'S IT ABOUT. and it looks as if tim burton got his inspiration from that film/quay brothers. Labels: some thinking involved (:
9:37 PM
stupid cold untrustworthy internet. in contrast with kind hearted helpful passionate humans. no matter how much passion humans put into making a machine, machines will just never be as good as the human brains and heart. and that's the contrast. Labels: some thinking involved (:
9:24 PM
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
i feel like yelling out this 4 word word into your ears. T i t H. Labels: haha
10:55 PM
it's real odd. im phonophobic (serious) but i'm loud (according to everyone else). and i never knew that ignoring a text message can be soooooo wonderfully nice. feel blessed. andnot caring can feel so... heavenly.
9:46 PM
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
summarizing: no one's made out of glass. so i admit i HAVE been VERY insensitive, and very ignorant. and i shant try to defend myself. there you go, although i have a feeling me giving in is not what you want. and to add on, since no one's perfect, then well let's just forget about even trying to be perfect. we'll probably just tire ourselves out at the end of the day making no achievements whatsoever. just live with it. all the hurt. and the joy. i guess, the skill is knowing what to block out and what not to. and i can be completely wrong. (because it's too far fetched and off-topic and too self centred.) Labels: some thinking involved (:
11:10 PM
omg im really considering just giving up on you. TITH, i think that's what you are, even though u said you weren't, like, months ago. and the worst part? i dont want to give up. Labels: haha
9:28 PM
oh whatthehell. i get discouraged easily. WAY TOO EASILY. and when i dont, it only means i dont give a damn, not that im even strong enough to face my own failure. this sucks. but its not like i like doing those. if i practise, it'll be only for school. i wont be likely to touch on that when i grow up to be anything i wanna be. sounds way too self centred and naive. everytime i get discouraged, i just cant be bothered to improve cuz i will know there's so many better than me and oh who cares. like math. just because of one failed quiz, an example, i will get discouraged from learning math and will start heck care-ing. then my grades will just deprove and deprove then in the end too discouraged to even learn. thats real bad. ohwell. i will have the hole holidays to improve, if i WANT to improve, that is. switching topic, ALL MY RESULTS ALL DAMN DAMN DAMN EXTREMELY FREAKINGLY QIAN BIAN!!!!!!!!!!! OMG. all three subjects ALL THREE DAMN QIAN BIAN!!!!!!!!! gosh. and i think i just suck at keeping to my memos. i think i did none of what my memo stated. hmm.. oh and i think i have phonophobia. a phobia of loud sounds. i get afraid everytime this loud motorcycle engine starts, everytime i flush the damn air-sucking toilet on the plane, everytime the loud deafening thunder strikes... blablabla. other than the stupid results, today was a nice day!!!!! DID U SEE THE HUGE ORANGE SUN THIS MORNING?????? it was real low and huge and orange on the car. once i got off the car i ranranran (afraid it'd be gone) all the way to the NJC fence there, or the... near-whatever-court's carpark there. to take some photos of the beautiful rising sun. funny thing is, i got it mixed up with a sunset. cuz i was thinking, oh no, how come the sun's rising?? then i cant take that nice picture anymore!!! then later i realized the sun was supposed to RISE in the morning. =.= and gosh.... it was simply amazing, to be able to see such a sight in like SINGAPORE where moons and suns appear small due to our position on the.. latitude. (or longitude?) so. yeah it was DAMN PRETTY. and i took a video of therising sun and well i can say to some people it may be boring-er than any of those weird videos we watched today for aep. serious. it rises real slowly, u cant even tell a diff thruout the video. and i had to stand there, arms aching, just to get everything down on, chip. and mr lim once stuck his head out of the asthetics department and yell "lisa ni zai zuo shen mo huh??" haha totally random. i bet it was cuz one of the teachers in the room saw this suicidal-looking girl sticking her camera and arm out of the building in a seemingly-dangerous way. o.o OHOH and u know i have the feeling i should never ever listen in class anymore, and learn everything off the WIKIPEDIA???? NO ONE TOLD ME WHAT WAS BIOMASS. i had ALWAYS thought it was the dry mass/standing mass of living things which was equal to take a organism, dry in the heater, take out the dried thing, measure its mass, and tada biomass. BUT APPARENTLY IT'S NOT MASS LITERALLY HERE WE'RE TALKING BOUT. damn stupid. and felt damn cheated. i guess thats the purpose of exams huh, to make one realize how CHEATED she was. gah. YES and for chinese i like followed exactly wangdan2's san bu qu and i like flunked my nei rong. I TOTALLY DONT UNDERSTAND WHY!!!!!!!!!! bored. should sleep early, maybe. or not. BTW I HAVE THIS MANUAL COUNTDOWN THING IN MY ROOM ITS EXTREMELY COOL (TO ME)!!!!!!! right now i'm counting down to hsm3. and i realized actually, the whole year can be counting down, for different things. like well for one thing, for example, if u've really nth to countdown to, u can count down to new year as soon as jan 2 of every year starts. then thruout the year u'll be counting down. everyday. uhhh. long story short. i realized everyday of your life you can be counting down to something, if you bothered enough. yeah. and why not? cuz counting down makes you look forward to sth. (: aloha. PS: im dropping hair like i've just been through/i'm going through the biggest crisis of my life.
9:00 PM
Monday, October 20, 2008
memo to myself on getting back eoy scripts: 1. try to be calm 2. try not to freak out over horrible results 3. tell yourself it's not everything and that you don't care 4. tell yourself it's the SAT that matters now (or not) 5. TELL YOURSELF AT LEAST THAT DOESNT GET YOU DEMERIT POINTS. 6. tell yourself at least u arent doing drama now 7. prepare for the worst and get into the mood 8. do not get discouraged. the subject just hates you as others does others. 9. tell yourself IT'S OKAY. and smile.
9:35 PM
smiley. (: frowny. ): quote unquote ms teng, whom 201 will miss!
12:50 PM
Sunday, October 19, 2008
im bored and thus i shall list the possible reasons for the ABSENCE OF A GREAT RELIEF OF STRESS AFTER EOYs. 1. last paper was aep d and p so even when we handed in we had to clear up which wasnt sth worth celebrating either. 2. last paper was aep and ghanaian took his time collecting so there's a more gradual change in atmosphere. 3. i didnt feel good about my painting. 4. (sorry. i realize im listing again. gosh that book is influential!) the whole end of eoys is very gradual seeing the number of papers left decreases almost everyday. 5. this aint a reason more like a fact. from meizhen, no one even shouted "it's over!!" after aep. how sad. and we were shouting for joy last year after math. 6. we had a difficult plan to work on after aep. (the ditch plan) 7. those rush to the humans department and boarding sch bus stop and then sch bus stop gave me bu shao pressure. overall, the atmosphere after aep was like even MORE tense. o.o 8. similiar to above, i have enough pressure even without eoys thus when eoys are done, it's just like the tip of the tip of an iceberg sliced off. (ooh i like this analogy) 9. or maybe i didnt put enough effort into the whole eoy at all. (which might explain my might-be bad results) yeah... sigh. but when i look at my phone that day on the bus, on the calendar seeing that i was on the last red-triangle-marked day, i really felt happy and accomplished. it's almost like, wow, i pulled through. and those day past fast. and sigh...... now, i really dont feel MUCH less stressed. i think it's cuz when eoys are here, i have a goal and know where exactly to head. but now that we're done. as previous post mentioned, it's just like a whole new world of mist. well you WERE excited about going to this whole new world. just that you didnt exactly expect it to be, misty. and you're kinda waiting for the mist to clear so u can see where's where and where to go. and thing is, u kinda have a feeling you've many things to do in this whole new world. like explore this place and that. but ur just too lazy to get ur ass movin. (ooh and im thinking i like this one too. haha) just like how im still sorting out my to-do list and pre-winter-cleaning and procrastinating my LOOOOOOOOONG to do list and i mean it, looooooooooooooooooooooong. blah. i feel bored. and not.. very tired, i guess. i want to watch cheetah girls 3. one world one dream sounds nice. elephants. ooh. i wonder how they trained them to co operate with them. i always wondered that for animals and babies or little kids in productions. i realize im being quite random and i realize this post can be labelled BOTH "some thinking involved" AND "out of boredom/crap posts". or that i drifted off from the main subject, which, when i look up at my Title, says "reasons for the absence of a great relief of stress after eoys". lalalalala. maybe i should go do some quizzes. hmm. ohyeah and in case you thought "and in case you not know, it was long ended" was real, it's not. it isnt a lie cuz when i typed it, i myself THOUGHT it IS real. maybe to keep myself from being hurt. but now i look back and see that it is not real, in any sense. and i realized some dumb thing. when u say IS real fast enough, it'll start to sound like israel. LOL. sorry im wasting ur time by blogging content-less stuff. so since i'm thinking this post is not going to end here, you can skip the rest of it if u want. i'm SO fine with it. (: but then again i'd be more if you would continue reading. since i typed it, anyway. okay here's proof of me being bored. im thinking about tmr's breakfast. i think i'll have to go out and buy. sian. (and i think my use of "sian" has totally ruined the who post's atmosphere cuz one word gave away that i cant in proper english. not like i really can, either SHUCKS i dunno what im talking about. sighhhhhh this is relaly me being. BORED. ohyeah and i think sarah palin looks pretty. and my dad was saying the other day that usa will probably just go back to a WHITE MAN as a president. since they cant decide on black racism or female sexism. haha. (i hope this isnt against the politics/law to blog about anyway. dont want to get beheaded. ohyeah my faithful readers (who, WOW is really still reading this boring post) please tell me if that was appropriate. i shall remove it immediately if it isnt.) lalalala. how come i cant find what i want when i search "quizzes" on google? did i remember the name wrongly? cuz i was rather surprised that that thing, whatever it's called, is called whatever it's called. cuz i didnt think it should be called whatever it's called because i thought it didnt fit that name, whatever it's called, properly. and if u've noticed, im trying to use as many "whatever it's called" in that paragraph. speaking of paragraph, i shall teach you guys how to write a good thesis statement. ( i know everyone's giving me the =.= look now since eoys are like way over but well it comes in handy later in life) anyway. so. a good thesis statement shouldnt be just a FACT. a good thesis statement has to be arguable and discussionable. one example, "a ball is a round object that rolls around on the floor" is a bad thesis statement cuz there's nothing to be discussed about it. and (im not saying i'm good at writing thesis statements, it's just at least better than the previous one) "a ball is beneficial in many ways" (i've no idea how either) is a better statement cuz it allows the writer to discuss HOW it is beneficial. oh darn i cant believe thats the only thing i rmb about writing thesis statements. what a bad teacher i am. ): okay nvm. sighhhhhhhhhh.... 11:20. and when did i start typing this post? im really bored. hey i justrealized. if it was any school day beofre the eoys i'd probably be rushing out some hw at this very minute. cuz 11:20 for the 2nd half of the year isnt cosidered late at all. sigh. well at least here's one diff between before and post-eoys. sighsighsigh. boredboredbored. u know, the economy now really makes me worried sometimes. but its not as if i can do anything about it. just plain worrying about sth makes me sick. ohwell. i htink im about to do up a list of things that i would never want myparents to find out. (sorry sidetrack a bit. i find it funny that the french pronounce "r" with this "h" sound. sorry so random) and one of them will be that.. i was once/am gay. AHAHA why does it sound so funny. really have no idea what their reaction will be. oh yeah and i realize. i'm really typing out whatever my mind's thinking when i type. i didnt have a plan or layout what im going to type next, just typing whatever that comes to mind so uhhh that explains the whole CRAPPINESS of this post? okay for people who really managed to read up to here of my looooong stinky boring post, tell me if u find this post annoying, a total waste of time, entertaining, stupid, or boring. MUST RESPOND OKAY FOR THOSE WHO REALLY READ UNTIL HERE. i really want to know what ur feel when u read a post like that. so that hmm next time i can improve and stop writing such long stinky boring posts/write more of such. hahahahaha. thanks for responding anyway. (: ohyeah u know i'd really consider u a SURVIVER if u read till here. so must tell me okay, then u can get acknowledged by Prof. Squiggler that ur a SURVIVER. haha ottally random. AND EGO. like who wants to get acknowledged by ME?????? im just another human being making no difference whatsoever to this big wide world. la. my bed has: OH YEAH I TOTALLY WANTED TO SHOW Y'ALL THAT thick pile of worksheets. but grrr im so lazy to even take out my cam. so. nvm. i shall do my own quiz since i cant find it: list the things on ur bed now: boster, pillow, 2 blankets (you must be thinking i'm sooo afraid of cold huh), a pooh soft toy, a bear soft toy, dog soft toy (the one huipin got me! thanks huipin!), guitar book, geo file, chi sia zuo wen li cheng dang an, chem and physics and bio file(hmm all these must sound familiar huh?), sketchbook, pencil-pencil case, stack of math worksheets, some red thin file which contains some paper, a red box(containED mooncakes), some paper in a plastic. boring. or should i say, BOR-RING!? lalala. let me try to be as descriptive as bpoosible in describing what's on my DESK now. (haha i can picture some people clutching their face/hair going "OH no not again") wow i really have a feeling im not going to finish describing EVERYthing on my desk. this is too much details... but hey it can be my goal for tonight. woohoo!!! then i'll set a record for myself!!! yes so brace yourself for the longest boringest descriptive essay now: (PS dont read it if u really dont want to. i swear it's more of a personal purpose to set a record, rather than for people to read. so skip if u want.and sorry that i made the UNimportant paragraph green and small. the small is to discourage u from reading becuase its really a waste of time but the green is to attract MY attention so i rmb i set a record in this post. so yeah.) START------ at the top left hand corner of the table, are three plastic boxes stacked on top of one another. the one on top has a blue cover and it containsa uhu glue stick, the largest size one, and some pens that i dont use often/at all. the box in the middle has a yellow cover and from my view, i can see 3 tapes: one pooh one, one clear normal one, and one protects-the-paper kind. oh and the yellow box is also where my refils reside during non-eoys period. 3rd box has a pink cover. there're some neoprints (surprisingly), a flower paper-holder made by my friend and some bookmarks. (wow this is beginning to sound like oral in pri sch). next to the 3 boxesis a calendar, on which i marked out zac efron's bday and the hsm3 premiere day. in front of the calendar is my spink and orange and white and red specs case. besude those 2 is a mug, which is use as a pen holder and it contains comb, scissors, a very cool pen, pencil and black marker times 2. in FRONT of calendar nd specs case is my laptop on which im typing... and beside my laptop are: USB cable for ipod, pink glue, Frozz cherry mint (really nice and it lasted for like a month or so??), red rubber band, a mouse, (duh). but the mouse is not on the same side as the other things. in front of the laptop is my handphone, on top of its mickey mouse pouch. beside the phone and the pouch, hmm is a LOT OF things. first this yellow conjugaison book ontop of my last year french notebook which in turn is on top of a purple screamcity notebook (thanks xuyue!!). BESIDE these 3 items, is a french dictionary. (and dont ask my why the french either, sudden temptation haha and oooh if O is reading this she might just guess who D is.) the dictionary is on top of 3 drawing block cardboardwhich i sliced out and saved for "future use" but apparently i didnt need it... also, on top of the cardboard is a book i borrowed called "speechless" well it's the book that suck a hell lot because they have sentences like "it goes without saying that *says the thing that "goes without saying"*" and "i probably wont even need to tell you that *tells you the thing that he probably wont even need to tell us*". it's damn annoying i gave up on it. but it has a nice plot though. BESIDE that book is.. that lesportsac pouch that contains my wallet, mp3 and keys and nametag. the pouch is on top of the book i just read and the book i like "what i believe" WHICH is on top of.. a foolscap that's out-of-bounds to others other than me. then there's my white specs lying just behind (yeah im wearing my old specs now) and also an aircon remote control is near to my specs. and together, the remote control, the specs, the foolscap and the cardboard lie on top of that nanyang newsletter for parents whch i havent and am not showing to my parents. below the letter is a sheet of green foolscap im guessing it's my Popular to-buy list. just behind the remote control, is an empty cactus water bottle. beside that, is my pencil case which says "life is fragile" in bold red letters cut out from the tape ahahaha. uhh, infront of the pencil case is a tissue and behind the (can i just call it case by now?) and behind the case is another pencil case. coca cola. hahahah and on top ofthe coke pencil case is a red triangle thing. beside the coke case is this brown card-containing envelope that i made ytd and AM PROUD OF cuz i made it 3D. like, a box eith edges, u know, not just only a flat envelope. behind these, is my lamp. on which magnetically hangs 3 magnets. and on 2 of the bigger magnets hangs 2 keychains one from malaysia one from bali, a purple wooden guitar!! behind the lamp, the phone. the house one. near the phone, a small box of paper clips (which i got obsessed over during eoy perious which was why i fastened all my notes using paper clips =.=). about 8cm or so to the right of the paper clip box is a pink box of tissue called "My Shee" and i dunno what it means and the paper quality is real bad or sth. hm behind the box is my alarm clock. of just a small black cube-ish clock. infront of that clock is the bar of chocolate ive been munching on during eoys and darn i should have put it back into the fridge and HOORAY I'M OFFICIALLY DONE WITH DESCRIBING WHATS ON MY TABLE and whew im tired. goodnight. and i cant believe this is a good way to get myself sleepy.. haha. AND I JUST SET MY RECORD!!! ahhhhhhhh i perservered. (: GOODNIGHT PEOPLE!!!!!!!!! i feel happy now.!! ahh im easily satisfied. arent i? sorry just to add on for my own info. i ended this post at 12:10am. so i know how long i took to write such a long post and when i slept. Labels: out of boredom/crap posts, some thinking involved (:
10:39 PM
i have a sudden feeling that i did badly for eoys. and i wont be surprised if i fail aep. not at all. i SHOULD have changed my theme to juxtaposition. stupid me. oh well. what will be, will be. and im asking for no more than a promotion to sec 3.
10:03 PM
gosh i'm so sorry guys, making your suffer all my "i believe"s. cuz i just read this book called What I Believe and it inspired me to make lists too. esp on what i believe. o.o it's a nice book. just a little depressing. sorry. it'll be over soon. i guess.
9:28 PM
statements that don't link and are ego becuase they're about what i think and sorry maybe most of them are critical o.o: 1. i never realized juno the movie is nc16 until ytd. 2. i believe money is not the only way a planet could function. 3. i believe in non-existent things. 4. i believe that human eyes arent meant to see aliens, for any un-Earth things. 5. i hate little girls wearing heels. 6. though i dont hate the girl who wears it. 7. countdowns are helpful. 8. especially at a traffic lights, or maybe busstops. 9. i don't like copied paintings. 10. it makes them lose value. 11. it's not SICHUAN people who're strong, it's PEOPLE. 12. i believe that all men are created equal, in terms of ability AND character. (which explains no.11) 13. i believe that every single action done has a reason behind it. 14. i feel very annoyed that i always hear songs that sounds familiar but can never figure out where i heard it from. Labels: some thinking involved (:
8:10 PM
Saturday, October 18, 2008
my holiday goal(s): 1. not let the holiday go to waste 2. practise eating, writing, reading, walking, showering, doing things faster.
9:33 PM
omg doodle was so demoralizing. well mainly cuz i suck at it. i tried soooo hard. just to realize it was the last level. =.= you should go try. ps corbin bleu looks like his dad with a mostache.
6:41 PM
gosh i cant believe i JUST remembered. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZAC EFRON!!!!!!!!! and WHY didnt my phone remind me?? i entered it as a birthday. >:(
4:57 PM
Friday, October 17, 2008
yo. due to my fear of being too bored in the holidays, im planning some events, open to everyone, anyone, including jwx: 1. teach classical guitar (F.O.C or you can pay if you want too) 2. go JE swimming complex swim!!! then can eat kfc there afterwards too. 3. go JEC ice-skate (: it's really very fun. those who never try before should go try. this one is STRONGLY RECOMENDED. (: 4. chill out at my house. haha except isnt in a so "chilly outy" way. uhh yeah.. free microwave popcorn! 5. does anyone want to go the CBD area/singapore river/clarke quay to hanghang? at night? (i dont know why but i'm in a very feel-like-going-to-singapore-river-at-night-like-now mood) right so anyone who's interested please inform me. (: all the dates and times are not decided yet.
7:18 PM
right. so the sentosa thing was cancelled and not a single soul was online today. until just now. except nicole linsha shaole, WHERE THE HELL DID EVERYONE DISAPPEAR TO????
6:41 PM
I love the World from Discovery Channel It never gets old huh? Nope It kinda make you wanna..break into song? Yep I love the mountains I love the clear blue skies I love big bridges I love when great whites fly I love the whole world And all its sights and sounds Boom De Yada Boom De Yada Boom De Yada Boom De Yada I love the ocean I love real dirty things I love to go fast I love egyptian kings I love the whole world and all its craziness Boom De Yada Boom De Yada Boom De Yada Boom De Yada I love tornadoes I love Arachnids I love hot magma I love the giant squids I love the whole world Its such a brilliant place Boom De Yada Boom De Yada Boom De Yada Boom De Yada Boom De Yada Boom De Yada Boom De Yada Boom De Yada Boom De Yada Boom De Yada http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MaZyPoxIT1E
11:36 AM
Thursday, October 16, 2008
the whole thing feels like a race. kind of. when you reach the finishing line, u heave a huge sigh of relief. and then u look ahead. a whole new world. with mists. and you don't know where to head. Labels: some thinking involved (:
8:30 AM
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
a sudden thought: i will cry while watching hsm3. dun ask me why i dunno either. guess cuz of it being too inspiring.
10:04 PM
ah. exams are over. but its real weird how i dont feel the sudden gone of stress. i guess it's because our exams are spread over six days then it'll be more gradual. or maybe im just numb already. anyway today watched painted skin with another 10 over people and lol it was... funny.we were the first to enter that hall and the hall was small and we were thinking it'd be so cool if we were the only people inside. but some people were just right behind us. cant believe we took a horribly long time to figure out which seats we were occupying. o.o and haha that long strip of tickets looks... WOW. like what u get in arcades. and i think they got their switch wrong or sth. cuz the light was on when we first entered. darkened during the commericals. and on again during the movie. =.= and painted skin is okay. but one part that's REALLY DISTRUBING is the lizard guy. i hate they way his tongue comes out. it just makes me hate lizards more. OHYES and the LIZARD GUY TOTALLY LOOKS LIKE A TYPICAL RUNESCAPE OR FIGHTING RPG CHARACTER. what's with his gray or silver hair and his costume. so =.= that was the FIRST thing that came to mind when i saw him okay. where got ancient people got gray and shiny hair one lor. even lizrads also dun have. and his hair is attention-seeking enough to star in an ad. o.o and he materializesout of thin air... =.= and the white woman aint so scary without all the sound effects. it's like, sudden and loud. wth. then i washolding onto jingwen. so scared!! but i think the movie overall was.. okay. WELL AT LEAST I LIKED IT BETTER THAN HERO. it's less exaggerating. but it was rather sadistic, the middle parts. but in the end a nice ending so i guess it makes up for the sad parts. ohwell. i like that "chu yao zhe" girl!! she looks very.. guy and very cool. and why so funny huh, "chu yao zhe"? she's very.. courageous. cuz rmb when she said a whole list of ways to test out a demon, the others were like "are you done??" and she ignored them and did what she had to. very inspiring. (: oh yes and i think the subtitles a bit weird. and the name is not constant thruout the movie. at first, she wasnt called xiao3wei1. it was either xiao3wei2 or wei3 or wei4 BUT I SWEAR IT WASNT WEI1. cuz i was looking at subtitles then thought "ooh, xiaowei" but then later got =.= cuz heard the movie didnt pronounce as xiao3wei1. then somehow during the movie, it changes to WEI1. so not careful lor. then subtitles also got informs like "gal" and "coz". o.o oops i think im gonna criticize the movie alot now. u know if they wanted a GU DAI pian, JUST MAKE EVERYTHING ANCIENT. many many in fact most of their convos are like modern. like they use terms like "da jie" and i cant rmb. i mean, with all those ancient books, i dont think they'll use terms like that last time right?? i think the director didnt do enough research. lol. AND at first, before the demon made the wife a demon, there totally wasnt sufficient "hate" built up in the plot to make everyone hate her so much and want to kill her. she's just demon. i mean, not like she WANTS to be a demon or sth. and she just HAS to eat hearts and. sigh. and then the plot also quite stupid like she made the wife become a demon and in the end she bo pian had to change her back instead. so =.= and at the veryvery beginning of the movie, when the man was going very close to her, she was supposed to be afraid right? but then the way she looked back at the man didnt show she was afraid at all. in fact it was like a evil look at him, like "i can destroy you". oh but i think red tears are very cool, esp when the person looks albino-ish. AND when the wife just turned into a demon, what was HER purpose of walking down the streets??? to test out if people were afraid of her? and when the guy help the demon buster tie up the wound, the demon buster shouldnt have any reason to not know what he was trying to do, being a demon buster and everything. i bet it was just so they could have a line there lor. then also.. if she was a demon buster, she shouldnt have acted so innocent while they were eating. she was acting as if it had nothing to do with her while it had everything to do with her. give the audience a wrong impression lor. when the movie ended, according to yumo, it was only 3 sth. didnt feel like going home and dunno what to do. a list of possibilities: shop. hanghang aimelessly. watch another movie. go kbox. go someone's house play mahjong (=.=). in the end decided to rent movie to watch. in those kbox-like rooms. and rented HAIRSPRAY. GOSH I LOVE HAIRSPRAY. the theme's so like hsm. AND I LOVE THE ATMOSPHERE. i think it just means i like musicals cuz i like the way how strangers can just start singing and dacing along. so cool. if the world was really a place like that, it'd be soooo... full of sunshine! (: and i like tracy. very happy and optimistic and everything. and HA-HA zac efron. AND OHMYGOSH. rewatching the movie is grosser than ever cuz first time watching i didnt know the mum is a guy and GOSH it was all so wrong and so gay today!!!!!!!!!! GOSH. we were like screaming. and we were cheering at the end of the movie! GOSH SO NICE. i was totally in a par-tay mood. the plot and theme so similar to disney's. so inspiring. hah and now ur know why i like disney productions? ahhhhh.. and this year im determined not to let the holidays go to waste. find sth meaningful to do. uh. which is??? OHOH. and i managed to survive three hours without talking. in the presence of other live humans that i know. im so gonna add it to my record. >< Labels: some thinking involved (:
8:16 PM
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
GOSH. some woman singing karaoke in the opposite block. AND GOSH. she just tried to hit a high note and GOSH CANT SHE JUST STOP USING THAT DAMNED MIC???? and somemore is those dunno 80s songs or sth. GAH. dont think i'll be able to sleep tonight. huh. dunno when she'll high until. ehhh oh yeah. if the world started with one living organism, or one cell (simplest unit of living organism), then everyone on earth now will be blood related. including the ants and everything. okay that's a horrible thought. imagine sharing blood with lizards and all. *shivers* AHHHHH. she's more of howling than singing. ....... must be too high cuz her son/daughter finished exams lor. on second thoughts, too sad. the music is like slow and draggy and howl-ly. yeah so BACK TO THE TOPIC, (glares angrily at karaoke woman whom i cant see) if there were only 2 humans on earth at the very beginning, like in Christianity (am i right?), then everyone on earth now will really be blood related. hey that's so damn cool!! imagine sharing the same blood with.. er.. CHRISTOPHER COLUMBUS. or george washington. or bill gates. walt disney. uh.. ur idols. so cool so cool. and i think, if there is one thing this blood carries, it's humanity. nature humane-ness. or it can be 2 eyes 2 ears 1 nose and so on. blah. she's still singing. ... i wonder if she dimed her lights at home to create a disco atmosphere? with like disco balls shining and reflecting and spinning on the ceiling. and a big screen in front of her, the song with lyrics at the bottom. red, blue or green. changing with every verse. OKAY- that's it. WHAT AM I DOING??? i think i lost myself into the karaoke atmosphere. but no i didnt want to go kbox okay. it was just a suggestion. ohyeah i think her most famous line by now would be "ah haaaaaaaaaa....!!!" in that howling way or "ah hoooooooow......!!!" i have a feeling she's replaying the same song for dunno how many times le. GOSHGOSHGOSH. i hate when she goes high. high-pitch. ohwell. GOOD LUCK AEPERS FOR LAST PAPER TMR!!!!! WE CAN DO IT!!! WE WILL SURVIVE THREE HOURS OF SILENCE! (or we can choose to communicate using morse code or sign language. ><) lalala im too high now DUE TO THAT WOMAN. wow i cant believe it. she just made me contract this cant-stop-blogging disease. o.o and thus, BYE. Labels: some thinking involved (:
9:56 PM
so.. i havent on this comp for.. 3 or 4 days? and then i decided to give in on the last day. anyway, yay we're 90% done with eoys and in less than 24hours, we can sing WHAT TIME IS IT again! sigh. and tmr will be 3 hours of silence. 3 LOOONG hours. how to survive? i really think i will start talking to myself. 3 hours of silence to the following: walt disney, sir stamford raffles, all the ants we killed (mr ng), all the pigs/chicken/duck/cow we killed by eating them, the prehistoric world including the dinosaurs and cavemen, qin shi huang, hugh low, etc. and yeah jingyi is right, eoys passes fast too. suddenly, we're only left with aep d and p. and it was only like ytd when i was worrying about not finishing my chinese on time. time passes fast... and that's bad. cuz it means we're getting older and older faster. and the world's end's nearer and nearer. and WE 201 will be separated sooner and sooner. ): okay nvm forget about the unhappy stuff. u know what? my brush went thru exfoliation. the black polished skin came off, leaving the wood inside. okay not the whole skin la. gosh. this post is so crap. there is no flow, and no main content. lalala. im bored. im bored as if there's no exam tmr. but what else can i do about aep??? ... ohyeah today got chased out of class by cjh. quite funny, to mention it. oh yeah, a few questions: 1. is the most unexplainable the most natural thing? 2. what does this statement mean: i'm being lied to that i'm lied to. (does it even make any sense?) 3. WHO WANTS TO WATCH HSM3 ON FRIDAY OCT 24 (NEXT FRIDAY) WITH ME? PLACE NOT DECIDED. 4. should i remove the rainbow in my drawing? 5. can i cross hatch part of my final work? and i think the best thing after an exam, even if you felt you did badly for it or whatever, is that you can dump the worksheets into your drawer and never take them out again until spring cleaning, which is when you'll throw them away. (: i always look forward to dumping my worksheets at the end of every test. can feel a sense of accomplishment. (: OH YES and guess what. i SPECIFICALLY told gan to not have the whatever video thing on 24 oct and he PIAN PIAN have to put it next week so one of the days falls on that exact date. now we know who hasnt been listening in class. >:(then now i can only watch hsm3 at night late at night. >:( okay shall go find lyrics now. Labels: out of boredom/crap posts
8:02 PM
Saturday, October 11, 2008
oh gosh. gross. i just read linsha's story and i must admit it's a million times more disturbing. and ytd night, as if i hadnt got disturbed enough by the incident in the morning, sth happened, AGAIN. i off the lights and went to bed. and i was lying flat on my stomach on the bed. bored and couldnt sleep. i took out my phone and started looking thru pictures and notes. read read read... blahblahblah. SUDDENLY- something dropped from the ceiling. SMACK it went onto my bed. right in front of me. from the light of my phone, i saw this dark figure. i SCREAMED. and it ran/crawled/skipped/flew quickly away, in front of me. the sound of it landing on my bed sounded like it was a lizard. it was like literally SMACK. and it having very fast reaction and speed, disappeared into the dark so quickly its movement itself was shocking. and the fact that it was some gross thing that DROPPED FROM THE CEILING, almost out of nowhere. omg 2 gross events to make me have a phobia of lizards. forever. i swore i was going to some place with 4 seasons when i grow up. someplace like changchun, where my mum said there's only flies and mosquitoes. sigh. hey i know of an advertisement for singapore for the lizard family: singapore, not only a sunny island, but a warm and humid paradise for your lizard. (: and welcome to singapore, the island where lizards flourish. (:
10:23 PM
Friday, October 10, 2008
zombie by the cranberries is nice. actually is sounds horrible. the voice. but it's very very nice, the sound. actually when i first heard it on 100.3 i didnt know if it was nice or disturbing but i guess i decided on nice. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-x5kmvpT3JQ it's anime but it's the only orignal one i can find cuz all others are like "me singing zombie" or "zombie-acoustic" you get the idea. lyrics: Another head hangs lowly, Child is slowly taken. And the violence caused such silence, Who are we mistaken? But you see, it's not me, it's not my family. In your head, in your head they are fighting, With their tanks and their bombs, And their bombs and their guns. In your head, in your head, they are crying... In your head, in your head, Zombie, zombie, zombie, Hey, hey, hey. What's in your head, In your head, Zombie, zombie, zombie? Hey, hey, hey, hey, oh, dou, dou, dou, dou, dou... Another mother's breakin', Heart is taking over. When the vi'lence causes silence, We must be mistaken. It's the same old theme since nineteen-sixteen. In your head, in your head they're still fighting, With their tanks and their bombs, And their bombs and their guns. In your head, in your head, they are dying... In your head, in your head, Zombie, zombie, zombie, Hey, hey, hey. What's in your head, In your head, Zombie, zombie, zombie? Hey, hey, hey, hey, oh, oh, oh, Oh, oh, oh, oh, hey, oh, ya, ya-a... edit: i realize dolores o'riordan sounds offtune always. but i guess thats the style. and "dreams" sounds familiar. esp the "in every possible way". but from where??? edit edit: OMG I REALIZE DOLORES O'RIORDAN IS SOOOOO SHUAI. and pretty. and man. despite the fact that she's really old.
10:54 PM
today i am going to share with everyone the most disturbing story ever. read it if you want skip it if you want. it's just plain disturbing, dont say i didnt warn you. it's disturbing enough to stay with you forever. here goes: this morning i was drying my hands and face with the towel hung on the railing. then somehow, i looked at my door, the hinge, right at the top. dont ask me why i looked at it i dont know either. so i looked. and you can guess what i saw. thinking of it gives me a stomachache now, or maybe it's just the kfc i had earlier on. i saw--- -- - a SMALL, DEAD, DRIED, SQUASHED LIZARD STUCK ONTO THE DOOR. it was gross enough to make me not scream. it was so disturbing. SO disturbing. so much more disturbing than that silent scream video we had to watch for bio. so gross. SO GROSS. just imagine how it got squashed. it was there, and then i closed the door, and bam it got squashed. and it even STUCK onto the door. must be slimy. uuuuggggggggggggggghhhh. i think i need to see a counsellor. i keep thinking of it. and my mum just removed it just now. which is really so much better cuz i had to walk in and out of my room ti xin diao dan-ly everytime. even now i also ti xin diao dan. damn gross. i think in the future henever i see a lizard it will just remind me of this experience. disturbing. disturbing's the best and only word.
9:09 PM
HAH. i feel so much less distressed now that history and geo are over. although they arent hard but these are the subjects that make you lose marks for god-knows-what reasons. so. and now we're in mac lab supposedly doing aep. and uhhhh im feeling VERY insecure about aep d and p. AND NICOLE. make me cannot go out hanghang after aep d and p. goshgoshgosh. ohyeah u know what. i think after this eoy, our left/right(for jinyi) arm muscles are going to be so much more obvious than the other arm's. my arms were ACHING when i wrote history. and i wondered if we could get excused for a while if we really couldnt stand the pain. so this brings us to the conclusion that having a smooth pen during the exams is very important. lol so irrelevant. and EVERYONE MUST PUT IN 110% EFFORT FOR MATH OKAY! "bu wei zi ji ye wei msteng" even if we dont give a damn about our own math results, we must still kao hao for ms teng. cuz if we dont do well we will dui bu qi msteng for all her effort and everything. jingyi said msteng said she was blessed to teach our class. and "2 years of math". so. LET'S JIAYOU TOGETHER FOR MATH!!!! (:
4:13 PM
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
darn. i feel tired. i dont want to mug. i dont want to do anything else either. i feel tired of mugging, memorizing, reading, writing, reading the question carefully, cancelling out words, sitting in register number, whatever. it's only day one of exams and i feel so tired out already. how am i going to make it to the end? sigh. btw today chinese was horrible. only the functional writing was acceptable because it was the first paper this morning and i had 100% brainjuice. then compo was crap. it sucked. it's stupid. it's shallow. it's primary 4. and paper 2. i can gladly tell everyone that i didnt do 20marks. and i really seriousyl do not understand why i always havent enough time to finish my chinese paper. it's not like i write very slow. and according to people, they read very slow also. unless they're lying. i have no idea why. i just cant finish it. always. everytime. ohwell. prepare to fail chinese i guess. but hah ONE thing im happy about is, i can bury all my chinese stuff now. and not look at it again till next year. this is what i like about eoys. sense of finish and accomplishment. and during chinese it suddenly dawned on me. i'm going to feel pointless living after eoys. cuz now and a few months earlier i am/was living for the eoys. and when the eoys finish, i'll be like an aimless soul living day to day dunno what's going on where to go. and who cares about that long holiday list ive made up long ago. i bet i wont even do 3 of the things i listed. it's always like that. anticipating for the end of exams, but it's really going to be boring when it comes. SIGH. or maybe i just need food. does that explain my mood now? sigh. i dread the exams. i dont dread the marks and stuff. i dread the process of DOING the papers. questions after questions. in contrary to most people, i'd rather get a 60% grade and not do the papers. enough for me to get promoted. sigh. SIGH. and you whats the WORST part of it all? i dont feel like doing ANYTHING. not sleep not slack not mug not eat (im hungry really) not do ANYthing. that really is the worst feeling ever. like you've lost ur heart or sth. lost your way. in a dense dense jungle.
2:12 PM
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
suddenly everyone decides to go home today. the bus stops were so crowded it makes you feel like one of the poor sardine in a can. and the bus was real packed too. did everyone decide to go home today for their final chiong on chinese? sigh. if i can pass chinese and la and get promoted to sec 3 i'd be happy enough. cuz i know that if u test me any subj now, NOW, i wont pass 50%. so this is very worrying. sigh. sigh. sigh. and its weird how people still comes online everyday now. and im one of the weird ones, preparing to fail i guess. i remember that last year.. math was the last paper and when some teacher (ms teng or ms teng) collected the last paper, the whole class totally screamed for joy. such unity. and then xuyue and yuxin and me went out onto the corridor to scream into the quadrangle. and we screamed sth related to hsm2. fond memories. well it was all nice last year without all the goodbyes. but this year it's different i guess. and this year seemed to have passed even more quickly than the last. is it just my brain working more and more slowly, or am i really that busy? or is there sth wrong with time? ohyeah did i mention about the hall? u know we passed by the hall at the third floor admin block and i totally got a shock when i looked down into the hall. IT WAS FILLED WITH CLEAN, BLUE TABLES AND CHAIRS, ALL ALIGNED NEATLY. i wanted to scream at the sight of it. felt so constipated cuz i just didnt dare to scream cuz there were people along the corridors and all. what pressure. and coming to think of it now, it really reminds me of psle. we had it in the hall too. aligned neatly with tables and chairs. and i was complaining to the chinese teacher saying how it gives us pressure and everything. SIGH. just that psle's ending in 2 days' time, including higher chinese... ohwell. Labels: out of boredom/crap posts
8:37 PM
Monday, October 6, 2008
illness is a cruel, cruel thing. it takes away people's lives. and is still greedy for more. it tortures people before it takes their lives. gives them hell to suffer. what is this- to play with a life when you know you're going to end it? so that you can get the maximum joy out of it before you kill it? it's heartless, inhumane, cold. Labels: some thinking involved (:
8:36 PM
Sunday, October 5, 2008
picture this: a girl, with flip flops, carrying a red plastic bag of 7 packets of dewberries walking in the rain. it was heavy. maybe i should impose a service charge. hmm i'll consider. and it was all cuz my parents had to go for some exhibition at suntec today. so i had to take bus myself, carri\ying those dewberries. i think people thought i was obsessed or sth. i couldnt help but laugh when i paid at the counter in the shop. and the bus was crowded too. and it was a wet day and my flip flops has lost friction due to wear ad tear. i realize 2 out of 3 of my shoes has got bad friction. ohwell. toodles.
5:49 PM
right. i cant find ANY nice ideas for ANY of the 6 themes. maybe im just a perfectionist. i had one nice idea and i totally scraped it cuz of ONE sentence my mum said, which made a lot of sense. and now i'm left with 0% idea. so if u can persuade me that there is nothing stupid and annoying about my initial idea, i will use back that. and im prepared to tell ghanaian i really couldnt get anything and i think health's more important. and im hungry. and it's 1 30 in the morning. i realized "1 30 in the morning" sounds nice. OH YEAH. i came up with sth just now that (i think) shocked my mum/caused my mum to think i've sth wrong: A GOAL A DAY MAKES YOU GO YAY AND BE GAY. and "gay" here apparently means happy but i bet she didnt know. because i figured if i have a goal everyday, i will live more meaningful-ly. and will feel more accomplished, if i hit my goal, that is. i relaized i have low. what do u acll that? uhhhhhhhhhhh hhhresilience. its like this morning i woke up in a very exam mood. i was prepared to clear my table leaving only the lamp and the tissue box and the phone and nth else to distract me. and also put a "DO NOT" on my laptop case. and yeah you can guess what happened. so my table is a lot neater now but then. fasting from computer only means more unhealthy cuz i wont use it in the day time but i will at 12 midnight. hows that? Labels: out of boredom/crap posts
1:18 AM
im determined. just that i will end up giving in again. "dont think about it anymore. it's late you should sleep. sleeping late is bad for ur body. think about it tomorrow." and it's sentences like these i listen to and never get anything done. heard of ming ri fu ming ri? and yes now im telling everyone that i STILL have not THE idea for aep. yeah and my mum just came in and told me that sentence again. wtf. i just feel like screaming to her and my dad i'm NOT waiting for "tmr" anymore. and if i really still cant get this done, i shall walk myself out of aep on monday. im sorry i cant get a single idea. do i look i dont bother enough to want to get an idea? so maybe you'll think its attitude problem again huh. sometimes i wish i could just fall sick. to prove how much effort i put into doing sth, because people just dont see it. stupid. annoying. i think my brain is stuck. it's, grounded. "unable to move on/progress".
12:21 AM
Friday, October 3, 2008
A winter's day In a deep and dark December; I am alone, Gazing from my window to the streets below On a freshly fallen silent shroud of snow. I am a rock, I am an island. I've built walls, A fortress deep and mighty, That none may penetrate. I have no need of friendship; friendship causes pain. It's laughter and it's loving I disdain. I am a rock, I am an island. Don't talk of love, Well I've heard the word before; It's sleeping in my memory. I won't disturb the slumber of feelings that have died. If I never loved I never would have cried. I am a rock, I am an island. I have my books And my poetry to protect me; I am shielded in my armor, Hiding in my room, safe within my womb. I touch no one and no one touches me. I am a rock, I am an island. And a rock feels no pain; And an island never cries.
6:20 PM
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
was looking thru a drawer and i came across some pretty old photos. haha and it reminded me of the photo jessy brought on monday. lol. i shall bring tmr (:
8:14 PM
they were cleaning clearing tearing ripping stripping it of colors. character. spirit. it felt like the last day of school, yesterday. Labels: some thinking involved (:
8:10 PM
Yours Truly To put it negatively, I am just yet another human being on this badly overpopulated and ruled-by-money Earth, but on the bright side, I am proudly from 201'08 and I love 201'08.(: I love my CCA.(: I have big dreams.(: I believe in Squigglerism.(: I like using the penknife. It is convenient and neat.(: I am more than glad to be in Singapore, letting me be more than satisfied with life.(: Exits
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